The Lili Hummel Diaries

March 23rd, 2021

TW: Addiction(Acholhal, Drugs), Anorexia, Bulimia, Mention of Suicide, Swearing

I let go of Quinn knowing that we hadn't really defined what we were yet. Rachel tried to hug me, I flinched and ran out of the auditorium. Rachel reminded me too much of Nicole. I went up to the roof, opened my laptop, and tried to write. I couldn't focus my mind wandering to Nicole and Jessie over and over again. Eventually, I had enough of the thoughts, so I climbed down from the roof and walked to Carmel. It took almost an hour and a half, but Vocal Adrenile practices from 2:30 pm to 12 am. I walked into the Carmel High Auditorium, sitting and watching the dancers and the two leads rehearse. After they ran through the number, one of the freshmen pointed up to where I was sitting,

"Spy!" I waved,

"Not a spy." Jessie laughed, then motioned to Joshua who came up by me and picked me up and brought me down to the stage.

"What are you doing here?!" I smiled and hugged Jessie,

"I missed y'all, besides once a VA always a VA." Jessie laughed at the stupid phrase Miss. Corcoran had coined,

"I'm sure everyone missed you too." I was then introduced to the freshmen,

"Let's show Lili what we've been working on." Vocal Adrenaline burst into a performance that the writer didn't feel like detailing. I clapped,

"That was really good. Now freshmen where are your show faces? As Miss. Corcoran once said smiles so optimistic they could cure cancer." Jessie laughed,

"God how I have missed me and you running rehearsals." I hugged Jessie,

-time jump a few hours-

"Take a five," Jessie yelled at the Group, I walked over by Nicole,

"Hey." Nicole looked over,

"What do you want?" I sighed,

"Nikki, can we talk about what happened?" Nicole rolled her eyes,

"First don't call me that, second we did before." I sighed,

"YOU KNOW WHAT, I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU. BUT THEN YOU TURNED OUT TO BE A COLD HEARTED BITCH HELLBENT ON TURNING ME INTO A SKELETON OF AN ADDICT!" I hadn't realized I had started yelling, Jessie was more focused on helping a freshman on their turns. Nicole grabbed my shoulder,

"I'm sorry." I pushed her hand off,

"No. No more sorries, you had your chance and you fucked it up." I walked out of the auditorium and left the school. I didn't head towards Kurt's house, instead, I walked aimlessly around Lima. I must have been walking for at least 2 hours before a car began to follow me. I tried to lose the car, but it was no use, they still followed me. After a few miles, my shoe became untied, I tripped and landed on my sprained wrist,

"Fuck." My wrist made a bad cracking sound as I landed, the car halted to stop beside me. A brown-haired boy got out,

"Shoot." The boy squatted down next to me, I saw a Dalton blazer,

"Please don't hurt me." The boy laughed and helped me into his car, then reached his hand out,

"My name is Wes, I'm one of Kurt's friends." I shook his hand, Wes handed me an ice pack,

"Hi." I felt embarrassed that Kurt sent a Warbler after me. Wes put the seat belt on me,

"Don't worry. I'm not going to hurt you, Kurt alerted me when you didn't come home right away. Kurts a warbler allum and as head Warbler, it's my duty to protect all warblers and their families." Wes went up front to the driver's seat and began to drive in the opposite direction I was going. I stared out of the window trying to not panic, Wes looked back at me,

"I forgot to mention, Kurt and Blaine came to Dalton after Jessie texted Kurt saying you left Carmel." I nodded feeling safer that I was going to my brother, Wes smiled and drove back to Dalton. I put the ice pack on my wrist feeling some of the pain go away.

When we got back to Dalton, Wes opened the door and unbuckled me,

"Do you want me to carry you?" I nodded sheepishly, Wes picked me up and brought me into the Senior Commons by some of the Warblers, Wes set me down on one of the couches by Kurt who was asleep. I nestled my head into Kurts chest and moved Kurt's arm around me. Kurt instantly woke up,

"You okay?" I nodded, Kurt smiled and sat up, and hugged me. The few warblers who were in the senior commons went over by Wes who was sitting at the council table. Blaine wadded through the Warblers and sat down next to me,

"Come here." I shifted and hugged Blaine, Blaine began to cry,

"Blaine, please don't cry." Blaine's tears slowed after a few minutes, Wes came over by us and sat down on the coffee table thingy in between the two couches,

"Let me see your wrist, please." Kurt placed an arm around my shoulder, as I handed my wrist to Wes. Wes carefully taking the brace off, I winced in pain multiple times. Wes looked carefully at my wrist before standing up and grabbing something out of one of the cabinets,

"It's broken, but thankfully, my dad is a doctor and Blaine is very clumsy so I always keep cast-making supplies in here." Blaine sighed and shook his head,

"I'm not that clumsy Wes." Wes shook his head as he sat down on the coffee table once more,

"Says the Warbler who got his head stuck in the railing." Blaine sighed, Kurt laughed.

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