The Lili Hummel Diaries

September 5th, 2021

TW // Rape, Abuse

-Quinn's POV-

Lili and Rachel had made their relationship official, and it stung knowing that it was done for good. I loved them so damn much and they left me for a stuck-up diva. I'm mad at myself for everything I hadn't done, I'm mad at them for dating Rachel, I'm mad at the universe for taking away the best thing in my life. I know they didn't want to break up with me and yet they did, I know that I was the first person who truly loved them.

I was going back to Lima for thanksgiving and they were going to be there. I was staying with my mom, and she wanted me to talk to Lili but I didn't want to. I went to glee club the second day I was in Lima, and Finn tried to make me laugh.

"Anyone of these guys could be president of the united states or the next Bob Ross." I kept quiet, and afterward, Mercedes came up to me,

"Q! Hey, you alright? Kurt filled me in on what happened." We went into the auditorium, and I cried into Mercedes for half an hour. Blaine walked into the auditorium,

"Quinn, you want me to tell you what Lili told me about what happened?" I nodded because the pain can't get any worse, right? Blaine told me everything from Lili's point of view and I knew that talking to them wouldn't help anything.

"How about this, why don't we write a few songs about this from your POV and I'll get Lili to write a couple, and Cedes and I can work on producing them." I nodded, I had turned to songwriting after the breakup.

"I have one that I was trying to work up the courage to sing in glee club, but I didn't know how Lili would react." Blaine hugged me,

"Do you want to sing it for us now?" I nodded and opened my laptop to the file of the song instrumental I had made a couple of days ago,

"Ooh-ooh

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah

Blue guilty eyes and little white lies

Yeah, I played dumb but I always knew
That you'd talk to her, maybe did even worse
I kept quiet so I could keep you"  I didn't notice as Blaine picked up his phone and called them,

"And ain't it funny

How you ran to her
The second that we called it quits?

And ain't it funny

How you said you were friends?
Now it sure as hell don't look like it"   I didn't notice them walk into the auditorium,

"You betrayed me

And I know that you'll never feel sorry
For the way I hurt, yeah
You'd talk to her
When we were together
Loved you at your worst
But that didn't matter

It took you two weeks

To go off and date her
Guess you didn't cheat
But you're still a traitor"  They stood next to Blaine, and that's when I noticed everything. 

"Now you bring her around

Just to shut me down
Show her off like she's a new trophy"  How red their eyes were from the endless crying,

"And I know if you were true

There's no damn way that you"  The long sleeves even though it was 90 degrees outside,
"Could fall in love with somebody that quickly