TW // Self Harm, suicidal thoughts, eating disorders
Rachel laughed,
"Of course you missed us." I was going back to Lima tomorrow, and I was scared to be alone without Kurt by my side again. We sat and watched the rest of the musical I was watching when Kurt walked in,
"Hey, you two." I resisted running over and hugging Kurt because it would make me seem soft.
-time jump to the next day, Lili has just gotten home from New York, they are laying on their bed-
I locked my door and said I was going to shower, but in reality, I grabbed the scissors from my desk and began to reopen the cuts that had started to heal. I let the tears fall, letting myself feel something for the first time since Kurt left. I laid down on the floor not bothering to clean and cover the cuts properly.
I woke up feeling like garbage the next morning and out of habit skipped breakfast opting for a scalding shower. While in the shower I took my razor and added five new lines to my legs. Even though it was early September I put on long sleeves and full-length pants to hide the cuts. I didn't bother to bring a lunch or bother to pay attention in class. Sam tried to talk to me but it was no use, I was lost in my depression. I used the excuse of I still wasn't feeling well to get out of gym class and to explain why I wasn't eating. Blaine caught me at my locker before rehearsal,
"What's going on with you?" I shook my head and tried to walk away,
"Nothing, I'm fine." Blaine stopped me from walking away,
"Kurt told me what happened, and I promised him I'd look after you." I grabbed my backpack and ran out of the building. I ran for a mile and a half before Blaine found me, I unwillingly climbed into his car. Blaine drove to an apartment complex, I didn't get out of Blaine's car until Wes came out to the window,
"Lili? Come here." Wes picked me up from the car's seat and carried me up to his apartment. Wes set me down on the couch in his apartment, "Can we see your wrists?" I sighed and rolled up my sleeves, and could hear Blaine gasp,
"Lili, angel, why?" I shrugged and Wes got to cleaning the cuts covering my arms.
A/N My mental health is slipping so don't be surprised if this gets sad and angsty again. go take care of yourselves for me.
total word count: 440
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