The Last Experiment (Y/N)

Chapter 18

Wanda's POV:
I never should've left her I should've been there I could've stopped it. They took Y/N straight into surgery. I paced up and down the hall for a good few hours before she lost it.
"Wanda will you please sit down? You're giving me whiplash," Nat asks. I sit down and the potential that I could lose her really sinks in.
"Nat tell me something anything. I can't sit here and wait I just can't take my mind off it. Please?" I ask.
"You know when Y/N and I went on our drive. I told her about my gay awakening. I met this woman when I was a spy in Russia at a bar. The way she held herself with such confidence it was hot. She knew she was too. I was hooked from the first second I saw her," she explains.
"That's why you like Carol you like confident women.  Do you want something to happen with her?"
"I would like something to happen but I don't mind what form it takes. She's not around a lot so I don't know the practicalities. I don't care she's hot," she jokes. It makes me smile a little.
"Thanks Nat. I needed to take my mind off of everything. You're a really good friend. I'm sorry I haven't been the best friend to you. Y/N is someone who could have anyone she wanted and so are you Nat. That's why I worry I guess that eventually she'll pick you," I apologise.
"You're really stupid Wanda if you don't realise how much Y/N wants to be with you. From the second she saw you she only had eyes for you. We flirt and that's it but you have a genuine connection. She would literally do anything in the world for you Wanda. Y/N could live a billion lifetimes and no matter what no one would ever come close to you," she assures me.

The door opens and I rush into the room where they're keeping Y/N. Seeing her lying unconscious on the table hooked up to a bunch of wires. She looks so vulnerable I can't bear to look at her.
"How is she?" I ask Bruce.
"She got through the surgery well and the bullet went straight through so that's good. It didn't do any damage to major organs she was lucky but her vitals are unsteady," he explains.
"How long until she wakes up?"
"I don't know Wanda but you need to prepare yourself for the possibility that she may not wake up," Bruce says sadly.

I run to my room and break down crying. The door opens and in walks Nat. She gives me a hug before we just sit and cry together. Y/N means a lot to both of us.
"Nat I can't lose her. I can't lose someone else I... I love. I love her Nat. I know it's quick but I do with every bone in my body. If I lose her I'll drown and I won't be able to recover again. You got me through it last time but it hurts too much. I can't go through it again. She has to come back to me Nat or I don't know what I'll do," I explain through my tears.
"She told me to tell you that she loves you and meeting you was the greatest honour of her life. She has a letter for you. Do you want to see it?" She asks. I nod and she hands it to me.

Dearest Wanda,
If you're reading this then I've probably gone and got myself badly hurt, I hope I at least looked like a badass doing it. I'm sorry to put you through this. I promised you I'm all in so just know that I'm really fighting to get back to you and I always will do. There's a few things that you need to know while I'm unconscious and in the worse case scenario.
The first is that it's ok to move on. You deserve to be so very happy more than anyone else I've ever met. Let yourself live for every single day. And find joy in the silliest of things. My greatest joy was seeing you smile with that adorable nose scrunch. If my time comes that's what I'll picture and I'll be fine, at peace even.
The second is please look after Nat and let her look out for you. I know you both adore me so will be destroyed but I hope you find comfort in each other's grief.
Finally I am truly, madly and deeply in love with you Wanda Maximoff. I wanted to be awake to tell you but such is my luck that I finally find a woman that mends my icy heart and I can't even tell her that I love her. But I do Wanda from the first time I opened up to you in the cell I knew that you were going to be the love of my life. Do you believe in soulmates? Cause I never did but it feels like every time I look at you my soul is complete. I am complete.
I love you so much Wanda. You saw behind the monster and saved me. And for that I owe you everything. My love, I hope desperately to find my way back into my safe space in your arms, preferably watching the Lion King.
All my love,
Y/N x

By the time I finish reading there are tear stains all over the paper. She loves me. She really does. I need her to wake up. I need her to know that I love her too. Wake up Y/N please.