i have a chemical imbalance
that is driving me to my death
my body is rotting
from all the pills
i give a stupid toothy grin
then i'm hyperventilating
again
searching for his face
that is only a "delusion"
shrinks are fucking liars
i love you
then i break it off
and break your heart
then i love you again
then i can't feel a damn thing
sleep deprived with reckless plans
painting again at four a.m.
then sleep is the only thing i crave
the only thing that numbs the pain
that gets louder, and LOUDER, and LOUDER
until i'm smothered under these sheets of intrusive thoughts
LET ME OUT
