if i were a bird
i would never fly again
i hate the way you remember me
i loved you
i know you see me as a villain
plotting my absence
a hawk of the night fleeing for migration
but please believe
it came suddenly
i was blinded
i give no excuses
but please understand
i am sorry
i wounded
a baby wren
just to live
in the abuse of a crow
just to be stripped of my feathers
i do not wish
to turn back time
or for you to show mercy
it is not you who could fix my broken wings
i am still repairing
though i am not who i once was
forgive me for my malice
i will never fly again
