i am an unnecessary appendage
a dispensable excess
a futile device
i am no one's everything
i am not even an anything
a redundant burden
an accidental dependent
perhaps i am superfluous
more than enough, but unnecessary
but i am anything but enough
i am the annoyance scrolled through
i am the problem that could be quite nice
if only i were fixed
if only i could see myself as more?
right?
i will do anything to be everything
to be a necessity
an essential piece of life
an inevitable and imperative appendage
a piece that belongs
is my wanting enough?
or does my pessimistic nature
my cynical self hatred
only further the wish
that i could be fixed?
so that i could be an everything
and not an anything for now.
