i was once fearless
formidable and reckless
a heart was fickle
and fleeting
i made no promises
i was once gutted from the inside out
yet the hole enclosed
i healed
this time
it is different
i long to hoard the heart
i crave to engrave what i once lost belief in
because my suns
my moons
paint the sky differently with you
because in those moments i saw a spring like no other
i too am surrounded by this desolate winter
fearing my flower will turn away from the sun
the only sun i every felt against my cold skin
the beauty of you that makes me cry
the lack of words that heave in my chest
the wish that crumbles underneath stagnant fear
a hope that carries an excruciating pain
a love that makes
every other thing a lie
