i lived in fear
trapped under rage
from a man who reveled in my suffering
he coined my token 'worthless'
a name i never forget
every spike he threw at my heart
every dagger of a word
remains in me
the reason i flinch, and clench, and shake
he titled me
every ruthless name
and they're written across my body
but what do i account for my pain?
an apology that only scratches at the surface?
you changed in ways
but remain the same
and i am accused
a liar
by the very one
who watched it all
who witnessed me be torn apart
brainwashed
is my mother
by a man who will never
be a father figure
to me
