i was trapped inside a blue-black world
surrounded by darkness
i can at least see the lilac-pink poking through these walls
walls once heavy cement
now dissolving to paper
i can rip through these walls, tear through the surface
maybe then, i'll finally see your face
perhaps, then, the light will finally shine through these now opaque, blue-black walls
only then, with your own pink-red affection
would i escape my slow suffocation
i can feel anxiety's thorns beginning to poke through these walls
inch through my skin
if i let them in, the blue-black will be painted a dark crimson
if i accept defeat to anxiety
if i allow its presence to tie itself around my throat
i could be consumed once again
i could easily fall into its traps
but i will claw my way through
i will dig myself out of the grave anxiety dug for me
i will tear through ever blue-black wall until i am surrounded by the light
until i am swimming inside that pink ocean
until i am submerged in that sunset
arms free, unrestricted, and unapologetic
i will soak inside that orange light until the day i am free
the day that i look back at my reflection
and claim her as me.
