He never Cried (ASHLEY 8) ☑

Chapter 33

Chapter 33

Sobrang namangha ako sa sarili ko, dahil nakayanan kong umuwi nang hindi nadidisgrasya. Ilang beses kasi akong muntik nang mabangga habang nagmamaneho ako kanina pauwi. I am not sure if I should be thankful for being able to come home safe though.

I am still not crying, but my tears are clearly visible and are on it's verge of falling. My vision is blurry but I can still see, hindi nga lang ganoon ka linaw.

With weak knees and body, I entered our house absentmindedly. I am well aware that I look so pathetic and weak, but should I care about it? This is normal right? I'm hurt, I should be looking like this.

May lumapit sa aking mga katulong, they took my bag and greeted me but I can't do the same, I can't even look at them. I feel so vulnerable, so frail, so broken...

"Nasa itaas po ang iyong Mommy at Daddy, Ma'am Heart." Sabi pa ng isa sa aming kasambahay.

I just nodded. Where did I even get that enough strength to move my head? Hindi ko na alam.

Walang buhay kong tinahak ang daan papuntang kwarto nila Mommy. I can feel my tears, they are begging me to let them fall, to let them go. I badly want to cry.

Wala pa man, wala pa siyang sinasabi pero ang sakit sakit na. I'm certain that Abraham haven't seen Eureka yet, but I feel so hurt, nasasaktan ako kahit hindi pa, kahit wala pang nangyayari.

"Anak? Are you okay?"

My mother's words triggered my tears, nasa hamba palang ako ng pinto ng kanilang kwarto nang tuluyan na akong naiyak.

Humagulhol ako habang naglalakad palapit sa kaniya. My eyes shut closed the moment I felt my mother's embrace. The warmth that I need and I have been longing to feel.

"Heart, anak? What's the matter? Shh, it'll be fine..." Malambing na saad ng aking ina.

I cried harder as she tries to calm me down. Narinig ko ang boses ni Daddy, but I am too weak to even face him. I just want to cry as of the moment, I just want to let it out... my pain, I want to get rid of it. Please leave me!

I suddenly remembered my Grandmother, which causes me to feel more hurt. I misses her so much. I want to hear her voice, I wish I could hug her right now. Gusto kong marinig ang mga payo niya, her words of wisdom, her encouragement and everything.

"I miss Lola so much, M-mommy." I said with my trembling voice.

Mommy sigh and hugged me tigher. She's currently sitting on her bed, her back on the Headboard of their bed, and her lower body is covered with their comforter. While I am hugging her waist and my head is above her tummy. She's caressing my hair and cheek, trying to dry my tears, but it's useless, my tears keeps on coming out. Daddy is just sitting on the accent chair beside the bed we're in, watching us.

I don't know how to tell them, that I am hurt and brokenhearted, because Eureka came back. I don't have enough strength and courage to tell them what exactly my problem is.

I just knew they will ask me more questions, and thinking about their possible questions exhaust me. I don't think I can answer them without breaking out. Maybe next time. I promise, I'll tell them everything next time.

"Anak, may sasabihin ako sa'yo."

I shifted my weight a bit to face my Dad. Suminghot ako at tiningnan siya gamit ang mga namumugto kong mga mata.