Alexander

Chapter 44

I look to my side with squinted eyes and saw a tall man standing infront of Xander's house wearing black pants and a black shirt.

I couldn't see his face properly but the way my heart started beating fast just by hearing his voice, I already knew who he was.

"Xander?" I called out. He walks up to me and stops infront of me "Are you drunk? Who were you with?" He asked, eyebrows furrowed. I take a moment to study his face, his strong jawline, his dark eyes and everything.

He was perfect

His familiar scent hit my nose, making me weak. I suddenly missed him. He was infront of me but I still missed him. My vision started blurring even
more, hot tears forming in my eyes.

This freaking jerk

He leads me on, asks me to leave, gone for one week and then he comes back acting like this? like nothing happened?

I glare at him or atleast tried to with my droopy eyes. "Leave me alone" I muttered, turning my back on him, trying to insert the key "Already did for a week, I think that's more than enough" He answered, hands in his pocket. I turn around to glare at him again "Thats enough? You mean you just took a break? Is that it? Do you plan on playing with me again? then once you get bored you just run away like you always do" I said, stepping closer to him. Being close to him made me realize how tall he was. I only reached his shoulder which means I was literally looking up at him. He looks down at me with intense eyes then looks away

"That wasn't my intention" He muttered, looking at the tall tree that was separating our house. I scoff "Bullshit" I muttered quietly, turning around to open the door and praise the lord, the key goes through the hole and I turn the knob "Goodnight" I said not looking at him, shutting the door behind me but something stops the door.

I turn around and saw Xander's foot, blocking it "I'm hungry" He said all of a sudden. I raise an eyebrow watching him open the door "Okay then eat at your house" I said nonchalantly trying to ignore my thoughts that were telling me to take care of him "I need to use the bathroom" He said, making me confused "Okay....then go home and use your bathroom" I said, looking at him confused. He sighs and steps inside, closing the door behind him "My toilet's broken, I need to use yours" He said, crossing his arms "Okay what are you doing?" I asked rubbing my temples

This guy was giving me a headache

"Let me take care of you" He said softly. I look at him suddenly feeling my heart break again.

Here he goes again

He was back at it again

"You lost that privilege a week ago when you asked me to leave" I whispered lowly, looking away. I couldn't look at him. The look in his eyes were too much for me, it just held so much emotions. He steps closer to me, making me step back but he just kept walking towards me. My back hits the wall so I just stood there, watching him come closer. He grabs my hand softly and plays with it "My therapist told me to be more open about my feelings" My eyes widened

Therapist?

"Therapist?" He looks at me and gives me a lazy smile making my heart flip "I told you I was too damaged to be with you remember?" He whispered. I nod not trusting my voice, he gives my hand a tight squeeze "I'm working on myself for me and you" He lifts my hand up to his lips and places a soft kiss on top of my hand "You don't deserve to be with someone who has trust issues" He continues to place soft kisses on my hand "After seeing you with West and watching you leave me, it triggered something inside me that made me realize that I, Alexander Woods-" He looks at me with a gentle and sincere expression written on his face "-cannot stand to see Lauren Elizabeth with someone else"

I froze

All of the anger and sadness inside me melts away

Am I dreaming? Hopefully I'm not

"When David told me you wanted to leave that day, that's when I realized that I officially crossed the line" He said looking at me deeply in the eyes "You were always so patient with me so to hear you wanting to leave, I knew I fucked up big time" He tucks a strand of hair behind my ear and started stroking my cheek with his thumb "I decided to stay there because I went to see our family doctor and asked him if he could refer a good therapist" I nod urging him to go on "So far, my therapist has been a good help and just in case you're wondering, we'll continue our sessions through calls"

His expression changes from a lazy smile to a deep frown with sad eyes "Lauren, I still got a long way to go but I came here to tell you that I'm trying" I nod, tears forming in my eyes "I'm not asking you to be with me now because I'm aware that I'm still messed up here" He points to his head. I grab his hand, giving it a tight squeeze "But just in case you do meet someone in the process, tell him he's competing with someone very determined to get you"

I couldn't stop myself from smiling

When he saw me smile, his lazy grin immediately lights up his face "That's the cheesiest thing I have ever heard Alexander Woods say" I said, trying to lighten up the mood. He chuckles "See, I told you I'm working on myself" He winks making me chuckle. I pull him closer and wrapped my arms around his waist. He rests his chin on top of my head and rubs my back soothingly.

I missed this

I missed him

This new version of him is definitely something I'm not used to but I'm absolutely happy with it.

"Xander?" I whispered "Mhm?"

"Are you really hungry?" He chuckles "Yeah, I just got back. I was knocking on your door but you weren't answering. I was about to lock my front door when I heard a car pull over and that's when I saw you bump into my car" I blush "That was yours?" I feel him nod

"Okay then, let me prepare you something to eat" I said pulling away. He smiles gratefully and nods "Thank you" I walk to the kitchen but stopped and turned around to look at him

"Regarding your toilet being broken-" He laughs, making my heart melt. His smile is honestly the best smile I have ever seen "I couldn't think of another reason why you should let me stay, so I just said the first thing that came in my mind" I stop myself from laughing "Right" I nod with a huge smile on my face

We both stay like that for a few seconds, just me and him looking at each other with a huge smile plastered on our faces.

I clear my throat and feel my face heat up in embarrassment "Your food" I said, remembering to prepare him food "I'll help you" He said, walking up to me "No it's fine, you're probably tired since you drove for hours. Just sit there and wait for me, yeah?"

"Okay" He nods, sitting and leaning back on my couch

I walk to the kitchen and tried to steady my breathing. I couldn't stop the smile that crept on my face.

I shook my head while smiling widely trying to calm myself down. I can't believe that just happened. He was actually making an effort to make this work.

It simply means because he actually really likes me

I let out a quiet chuckle and decided to stop gushing over Xander and start preparing him a meal.

I have a lot of time to daydream about him later

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Let's all admit it. We cant hate Xander now 😭🤚🏻