~Decisions~

~chapter 11~

I take a deep breath and stand outside the lunchroom. "Are you ready?" Liam asks. I look at him. "I mean yeah but no" I say. We walk in and sit at our table.

"I don't understand how no guy threw themselfs at her yet! She's fine as fuck!"
"Just wait till that group comes back from break. They will be all on her! Wether she likes it or not"

I take a deep breath. "Whats wrong? You look tenses" jungkook says. "No nothing important" I say. I feel hands cover my face. "Baby" he says. I squeeze my eyes shut as he removes his hands. "I thought I said to stay away from the boys" he says. I open my eyes as they are now watery. I turn and look at him. "We aren't dating" I say to him. "There for I don't have to listen to you" I say to him again. "Your not stuttering! Am I not scaring you?" He says.

I look at him. "No" I say. He looks at me. He grabs my hand and yanks me out of the cafeteria leaving the guys behind. He shoves me up against the wall. "I thought I said not to hangout with them!" He yells. I try to wiggle away but it doesn't work. "I don't have to listen to you" I say. He wraps his hands around my throat. I try to pull him off but he's to strong. He releases his hand as I gasp for air. "You bitch!" He yells. He slaps me in the face. I whimper. Why aren't the guys here!?

I let out a quiet sob. He slaps me again. "S-stop" I say. He looks at me. "Am I a scaring you now?" He says. "No" I say. "But stop it hurts" I say. He slaps me again. "It's supposed to" he says. He drags me to a empty class room. He pushes me against the counter. Kissing me roughly. He slides his hand between my legs and going up. "S-stop" I say. He doesn't budge. I push him off and kick him. He slaps me again. He drags me down to the floor. Getting between my legs and pinning my arms above my head. "S-s-stop" I say crying. "Don't yell! And don't even think of wiggling away" he says. I whimper. He unbuckles his paints. He removes my underwear.

Warning! Rape

He thrusts into me as I let out a whimper. "It hurts" I say crying. "Jason stop it hurts" I say. He cover my mouth with his hand. I cry. He keeps going picking up speed and being rough. About 20 minutes of literal pain he gets done.

End

"Clean yourself. You are bleeding" he says. I stand up and wipe myself down there with a napkin. I throw it away. I slip on my underwear as I cry harder. "I hate you" I say. He smirks at me. "Won't be the first time" he says. "Now you'll go back into that lunch room. Don't cry. wipe your tears and just say we were talking" he says. We start walking but I end up limping from  the shooting pain between my legs. "Walk right! Don't make it obvious" he says. I ignore my pain yet once again and walk normal.

We walk back into the lunch room. The guys smile at me as I fake smile. "So what happened?" Liam asks. I look at him. "H-he just wanted to t-talk" I say with a smile. They smile at me and turn back to their conversation. My smile fades and i become emotion less. A tear slides down my face. I let out a shaky deep Breath that only I can hear.

But what i didn't  know is someone was looking at me. I zip up my jacket. All the way. Liam turns his head towards me.  "You finally zipped it up" Liam says with a giggle. I look at him. Blankly. I just look at him. I stand up and walk out. I walk to my locker grabbing my stuff out. I grab my keys and walk to my car. I get in and let out a scream. I sob as I pull out of the drive way and start making my way to my dads.

About 45 minutes later, I  get out of my car. I knock on the door. "Miss Nicole please come in" the maid says. I get in. "Your dad isn't here but your brother is"she says. I nod my head and make my way up to his room. I knock on the door. "Come in" he says. I walk in and start sobbing. He grabs me and hugs me.

"Shhh little sister Shh" he says. "H-h-he r-raped m-me" I say. He freezes. "WHO DID!? JASON?" He yells. "He did" I say. "IM GONNA KILL HIM!" My brother says. "Lucas! I need you right now please don't leave me please!" I say crying into his chest. "Shhh! Change your clothes and take a nap you'll feel better in a hour" he says. I walk to my room, change my clothes into sweats and a t shirt. I lay on my bed. I close my eyes.

3 hours later

I stand up. I grab my phone.

50 missed calls

I stand up. I grab all of my stuff. I walk to my brothers room. "I'm gonna head home" I whisper. He looks at me. "Your neck" he says. "It's alright! But I'm gonna head home" I say. I give him a hug and Walk downstairs, to my car as I drive home. I pull in and get out. I open my door to see all the boys sitting on the couch. They all jump up but I ignore them and walk up to my room. I feel so dirty. I set my bags on the floor. I look at myself in the mirror. I let out a sob. "This is all your fault" I whisper to myself.

I walk to my bathroom. I shut my door and lock it. I look at myself in the mirror. The bruises and hand mark around my throat. I pull out my blade and start cutting. I've been clean for about 5 months now until today. I clean up the blood. I ignore the pain and just walk downstairs. I wipe my tears. I fill a glass with water.

I grab pain killers from the cabinet and take it. I set the glass down on the counter. I take in a shaky deep breath. "Don't cry" I whisper to myself. "Don't let them see your weak spot" I whisper again. I take a deep breath. I turn around and without realizing I had the glass cup in my hand it falls out and onto the floor.

Hearing the way it shatters I shut my eyes tightly. Reminds me of the accident.

I hope you guys like this book so far!