~Decisions~

~chapter 129~

I'll let you know when to play the song at the top. It's a 1 hour mix. To set the mood for the emotions in the chapter. (You can even play now if you'd like)

I take a deep breath after I've calmed down. I walk from the rooftop back into the room. "You look tired" I hear Felix say. "Really? I didn't notice" I say with a small smile as I look at him. He walks towards me and hugs me. I smile at him and grab my phone. It starts ringing in my hand.

Jason

"Hello?"
"Hey. Do you mind if I come to the building?"
"No. You can't"
"Please? I won't try anything stupid"
"Okay"
"Thank you"

The call ends. I take a deep breath. No later than 3 minutes our receptionist comes in. "Ms.Nicole! Jason's downstairs" she says. I nod my head. I walk out of the room and race downstairs, with the guys following close behind. Our bodyguards have their guns out. Well everyone does.

"Jason" I say. He looks at me. He softly smiles with sad eyes. "I wanna make a deal!" He says. I look at him. "What deal?" He says. "I tell you his location. But you have to promise to kill me before he does" he says. I look at Jason. "I-"I say but he cuts me off. "Please" he says. I look at him. "Promise me, you will be the one to kill me before he does" he says. I nod my head. "Deal" he says. "Deal" I say.

"His location...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. I'll take my leave now and wait for you in the front of the place, okay?" He says. "How do I know you aren't lying?" I say. "It's an abandoned building. It's cold. Dirty. And dark" he says. I nod my head. "Then you have a for sure deal" I say. He nods his head at me. He walks back out. I turn back to the boys. "Get everything ready" I say. They nod their heads.

I look at my husbands. "Lydia you promised him your life" jungkook says. I look at him. "I did" I say. "What are we gonna do with out you?" He says as his eyes water. "Lydia never dies" I say to them. "But I don't know about today" I say. "But I love you. That's for fucking sure" I say. "Cmon. Let's get ready" I say. "I want all guards armed and ready to go!!" I say. "Yes ma'am" he says. I nod my head. I start walking up the stairs with the boys following behind.

I get my weapons and everything ready. I walk back out. The boys are all ready. I smile sadly at them. "I love all of you. I hope you know that. Let's go. Fighting" I say as we walk out and get into our cars. We make our way to the building.

40 minutes(play the song here)

We pull in and park our cars. We get out. We see Jason. I look at him. He nods his head as we walk in slowly. I take a deep breath. Jason pulls out his gun. He starts to shoot random things. I get why he did that. I hear screams as my eyes water. "Lydia it's time" Jason says. A tear escapes my eye as he turns and looks at me. He grabs my hand. I look at him.

He pulls out a knife. I look at him. I shake my head. "You promised me. Now you have to do it" he says. I silently sob. He places the knife in my hand. "I always told you that I loved you and I wouldn't stop loving you for the rest of my life" he says. I sob. "Shh baby it's okay" he says. He wipes my tear. "Down the hallway. Up the stairs. To the left." He says.

"I told you I loved you. I told you that I'm sorry. And I told you one day that I'd kill myself if someone hurt you. I hurt you. I'm killing myself now" he says. He looks up at the boys. "Take care of her. Respect her and love her like how I couldn't" he says to them. "I promise" I hear jungkook whisper. He looks back down at me as I look up at him. He kisses my forehead. "I love you" he says. He position the knife against his stomach.

"No! Jason! I can't" I say. "Look at me" he says. "Just look at me" he says. I sob. "I love you" he says. He takes a deep breath. "I want you to pull the knife out when I say" he says. I sob. "It's okay. It'll all be over soon" he says. He looks at me and pushes himself against the knife. I feel it slide in. He squeezes his eyes shut. I gasp. "P-pull I-it o-out n-now" he says. I pull it out. He lands in my arms as we land on the floor. I hold him. I drop the knife beside me. I put my hand on his stomach. I sob. He touches my face as I look at him.

"I forgive you" I whisper. "For everything" I say. "I-I know y-you d-do" he says. "I-I d-don't w-want y-you t-to b-be a-a-f-fraid a-anymore" he says. I sob. "You are an idiot" I say. He chuckles but whimpers. "L-let t-them l-love y-you" he says. I sob. "Im okay now" he whispers. "L-let t-them t-take c-car O-of y-you" he says. "I'll let them take care of me" I whisper. "I love you to. And I forgive you. I don't hate you" I whisper. He smiles. "I love you lydia" he says. His eyes slowly close as I feel his hand drop to the side. I let out one more sob. I close his eyes and lay him down. I grab the knife.

"Let's go" I say. I walk Down the hallway. Up the stairs and To the left. I open the door. "It's very nice of you to make it" my cousin says. I pull out my gun. I signal the guys to help Jackson. He has his arm around Alice's neck. "Let her go" I say. He smirks. "I promised you my life, now let them go!" I say. He walks towards me. "Lydia it's okay" I hear Alice say. He lets her go but stands beside her pointing the gun at her temple.

"Nothing about this is okay" I say crying. "Lydia listen to everything I say" she says. I look at her. "I love you like my little sister. I've always wanted a little sister" she says. "And I finally got one" she says. "I want you to live life to the fullest. Love your job. Tell Nicole's, Carlos and Rick, that I love them to" she says. I sob. "I love you..my little sister" she says. I look at her. I keep my gun focused on my cousin. "No! I need you in my life! I need you Alice! Please don't leave me!" I yell. She smiles as tears slide down her face.

I look at her. "I don't want you to be afraid of love anymore lydia. They love you with their whole heart and I want you to let them in. I know it's scary. But let them in. Let them love you" she says. "Smile, everyday. Sing, everyday" she says. "Don't miss me  so much" she whispers. I let out a sob. "I can't let you go Alice" I say. "You can't let me go, but I can let you go. Lydia I love you so much! Please be happy for me. Hug Carlos for me and tell him how much I love him please" she says. My cousin cocks the gun back. "Stop! Don't you dare pull that trigger!" I say.

"She promised me her life for you to live" he says. "No! No!" I yell. "Alice please don't do this please" I yell. He grabs her again as she sobs. He points  the gun at his own head. "No! Alice please!" I yell. "Please let her go!" I say. He smiles sadly at me. "I'm sorry! I've never wanted to hurt you! But I had not choice but to help my father and my uncle to give peace to my mother!"he says. I sob. "A life, for a life, for a life" he says. I sob. "Please" I say. "I love you lydia" Alice says.

I sob. "Alice please!" I yell.

But

It's was to late

"No!!!" I yell as tears stream down my face. "No!!!!" I yell again. I feel arms wrap around me as I fall to my knees. I continue sobbing in his chest. I scream. I sob. "It's all my fault" I say. "Shhh. It is not" I hear him say. "How is Jackson" I say as I look at him. "He's outside" jungkook says. "Kookie I'm sorry" I whisper. He smiles at me. "Shhh. It's okay. I'm sorry for being such an asshole" he says. I hug him. I stand up. He stands up with me. Everyone is outside. I walk with him. "I'm tired" I whisper to him. "We'll go home love" he says. We reach outside and I see Jackson with his friends. My eyes water.

They turn my way. I look at Jackson. He smiles at me. I walk towards him as he walks towards me. He wraps his arms around me as he breaks down. I start crying myself. The sound of his sobs can be heard. "I'm so sorry!" He says. "Hey! Hey" I say. I pull away and grab his face in my hands. "It's not your fault" I say. "I'm so fucking sorry I couldn't find you any time sooner" I say with a sad smile. He looks at me. "All that matters  is we are here now" he says. I hug him. "We have to take Alice's  dead body to the hospital. Call her family and Carlos and Rick. So they say goodbye" Jin says. I look at him. I nod my head. I squeeze Jackson's hand 3 times.

Y'all I cried!! I hope you like this chapter though.