~Decisions~

~chapter 45~

The next morning!!

"Hey Felix give it back!" I say. "Come take it!" He says. "No! Please just give it back!" I say. "What are you looking at that's so important anyway?" He asks as he looks at my phone. "LYDIA WHAT THE FUCK!?" He yells in panic. I look down as tears escape my eyes. I then hear loud footsteps that belong to different people.

"WHAT THE FUCK!?" He yells again. "What's going on?!" Jackson yells. I look up. "They are fake" I say softly. "Lydia these comments are as real as your relationship with baekhyun" he says calmly but still in panic. I look at him and let out a soft giggle. I look down. "I know" I say softly. "What comments?" Rm says. I grab my phone. "N-no c-comments" I stutter.

Oh why am I scared? "Phone" he says. "No" I say. "Phone" he says more sternly. "No" I say. "PHONE!" He yells. I sigh and Hand him my phone. His eyes soften. "Lydia babe" he says softly. I look at him with arms crossed. "Don't give attitude. We are just protecting you from things like  this" he says. "Yeah? well I didn't ask for protection did I!" I snap at him. I sigh again. I shake my head as my eyes water.

I get up and walk away. I slip on my shoes and walk out of the hotel room. Down stairs to the lobby. I take a deep breath once outside. I see paparazzi and fans. They are screaming as I softly smile.

"Lydia! Lydia! How are you this morning!?"
"I'm good thank you"
"Lydia how are you with all the hate!?"
"Don't give one fuck about the haters!"
"Lydia are you really pregnant?!"
"Rumors are rumors don't believe everything you see!"
"When will limin get back together!?"
"I can't read the future!"

I finally reach the car, I take a deep breath and get in. I look inside and see the girls. "Cmon" I say softly. They smile. We drive off to the mall. Is it just me or are we all going distant. I say to myself, or so I thought. I look up to see all the girls starting at me with sad eyes.

I turn away as a tear slides down my face. I look out the window as we pull into the drive way. The car comes to a stop and I hurriedly get out.
I walk in. I realize it's only us here. I wonder where everyone else's is. Then I remember "we rented out the mall we will go together" Jin says.

I take a deep breath. "Lydia what's going on?" Lisa says. I don't say anything except just look around. "Lydia come on say whatever it is on your mind" Jennie says. I sigh. "I don't know where to start" I say as my voice breaks. I punch the wall. "What's wrong with me!!?" I yell. I turn around to face them.

"There's nothing wrong with you"Lisa says. "There is obviously something wrong! I mean Cmon we all see it! No one wants to be around me! I'm straight pissed off at everything and everyone for no reason at all!" I yell crying. "The boys! I feel them getting distant! I can see it! I feel it! I hate it! It's because of me! All because of me! And d-don't t-tell m-me d-different! I-I'm l-loosing t-them" I say as I break down full on.

"I love all of them so much! And if I lose them then I have nothing more to live for! I just don't like this! I don't want anyone to leave me! Lisa you know how I am! Before someone leaves me..I'm always one to leave them! But not with these guys! I don't want that to happen!"I say. "What do you think about them all seven?" Jisoo asks me. I look at her.

"Want me to describe?" I ask as tears still fall. "Yeah" they all respond. "Well it started with jeon jungkook.." I say as I let out a soft giggle. "I was walking the hall in the morning to get to my locker. When I bumped into him and made his stuff fall on the floor. I apologized immediately and picked it all up. And man was he handsome. I walked away after handing everything to him. I walked to class that morning only to be seated next to him. So all of this now started with jungkook who saved me from getting slap that 2 or third time by Jason" I say as I flinch at his name.