The great love story ✔️

29| gone forever

Meredith's 12 weeks pregnant

Meredith's POV

I woke up before Derek, I looked over to my right to see him still fast asleep. I got up and out of bed and went into the bathroom and turned on the shower and waited a bit for it to get hot, while I was waiting I decided to check if the boys were still asleep. I went back into our room and checked the baby monitor and saw that all babies were still asleep.

I went back into the bathroom and took off my nightgown and got into the steaming hot shower and let the water go all down my body then grabbed some cherry blossom body wash and put some onto my black lufa and washed my entire body with it then washed my hair with cherry blossoms shampoo and conditioner.

Once I was finished with my shower I got dressed into a white lace set and a long white and long-sleeved dress with shiny roses on it and white heels and then went and blow-dried my hair, brushed and curled then put my shiny hair into a mid braided bun

Then went and checked on the triplets again and they were still asleep but they were going to wake up soon. I went into the kitchen and made some oatmeal then put it into a bowl and added some other things into it and made some ready for the triplets along with their milk That I warmed up and put Dereks into the microwave without turning it on

I ate my breakfast and heard the boys starting to wake up so I went into their room and changed their diapers and got them dressed in red button-ups and black dress pants and black shoes since they were starting to walk around. I put them into the high chairs that we had in the kitchen and gave them their food and milk and then started cooking some eggs and toast since I'm still hungry.

Derek still hasn't woken up yet and he has to work today as do I. The eggs finished cooking and the toast was ready I sat my food down at the table with a glass of orange juice and Matthew started to cry so I went over to him

"Matthew, what's wrong?" I asked pulling his chin up so he'd look at me

He didn't say anything and just continued crying so I went and turned on the TV so it was playing some learning music I went back over to where they were all sitting and they all started watching the tv so I turned to high chairs so it was easier for them to see it and once they were satisfied I went back to the table and finished eating my breakfast.

As I finished Derek still hadn't woken up yet so I went into our room and tried waking him up but he wouldn't I checked his pulse and could feel it barely there I went into the kitchen and called an ambulance and they said they'd be here in a few minutes

I did my best to keep calm for the boys, I learned how to make it look like you don't care whatsoever and hide my feeling when I was younger so it was nothing new

A few minutes later they arrived and they took Derek onto a gurney he looked completely pale and lifeless

He was perfectly fine this morning

Or so I thought

I told them I would meet them at the hospital soon after. I called my mother and told her the told story trying not to break down on the phone

She'd kill me if she saw or even hear me slightly vulnerable

I asked her if she could watch the boys while I went to the hospital she said she'd be here in 5 minutes since they lived pretty close to us.

She finally arrived and right after she did I grabbed my coat and left the house and drove straight to the hospital where they took Derek. once I got there I asked a nurse for his room and they gave it to me right as I was about to walk in I saw them shocking him with the petals multiple times and they got nothing I started crying I put my hand over my mouth to stop myself from making any noise

"Время смерти 12:25" they called it
(Time of death 12:25"

I didn't make a single noise I dropped my head and started sobbing I went into an on-call room and dropped to the floor. I couldn't believe it

He's dead

Gone forever

I'll never see him again

The father of my children

The father of my two unborn children

Gone. Forever

He's never coming back

What am I going to do?

This can't be good for the baby's

It's too much stress for them to handle

They'll never get to meet their father

He'll never get to meet them

He was so excited for twins too

It's a shame

All children should be given a chance to have a father

But apparently not mine

The boys won't remember him

They won't remember what's it's like to have a father

I'm a widow

Derek. Is. Dead.

I closed my eyes and just hoped all the pain would go away

But it didn't this was real I was never gonna see Derek again

This wasn't a dream

At least he died in his sleep no pain or anything

I didn't even get to say goodbye

My life is over

I can't move on from this

The pain will eat me alive

I can't go to work

I can't raise my kids without a father

His family will hate me

Everyone will hate me

I'll be all alone

In a sad, dark and lonely world

*****

And then she woke

In a hospital bed

"I'm sorry Meredith, you're baby's didn't make it"

They were also dead

The one thing she had going for her

The only thing that kept her from ending it all

Her one reason to wake in the morning

They were gone

Her two little girls, they were the speeding image of their father

And they were all too much like him

Dead.