You & I- Rafe cameron fanfiction

22) I don't know

Isabella's pov,
Rafe wasted no time in kissing me harshly out of anger. His hands gripped my waist tightly making me whimper as tears started to come out of my eyes. I pushed him off and wiped my tears but it was of no use. More tears started falling out of anger. He sighed guiltily before taking my hand in his but I pushed it away. "Just take me home" I let out. "We're gonna talk about this first May. I can't let you go home being mad at me okay?" He said softly but I nodded a no. "The fact that everything you told me was the same thing you probably told thousands of girls makes me sick. I'm no different than them to you. Am I Rafe?" I yelled out my voice almost cracking. "What the fuck do you mean May? You're the first girl I've ever loved and I meant everything I said to you with all my heart. I swear on my life" he yelled out his eyes watering.

"I don't believe you right now Rafe" I whispered out breaking his heart. "You can't say that. You're the only one who always believed in me" he whimpered out. "Just drop me home. I can't be here anymore" I told him and looked away from him. He sniffled and got in the front of the car before driving out of the beach area. We drove to my home in uncomfortable silence. Both of our cries audible. I knew this relationship was toxic from the first. Maybe mum was right to not trust Rafe. But then again I've never loved any other boys though I was in relationships. I see him pull up in my neighborhood. But before I could get out Rafe locked the doors making me sigh. "J-just tell me that we can fix this" Rafe told me with desperation in his tone. It broke my heart but I nodded no. "I don't know Rafe" I told him truthfully making him sob. His sobs felt like bullets through my body. "Rafe unlock the door" I managed to let out without breaking down. He didn't say anything anymore and unlocked the door. I quickly got up and ran to my house breaking down in the way. But I kept on running until I got in. I ran over to my mum and hugged her tightly while crying. "Baby? Who hurt you? Tell me" she said softly as she hugged me back tightly. I just cried even more not knowing what to say.

"Where's ma?" I asked her as I settled on the couch with her. "Working on the Cameron household. Why?" She asked me back making tears come back but I held it in. "I just broke up with Rafe I think" I told her making her gasp. "Why honey? Did he hurt you?" She asked me in a protective tone. I just shrugged. "His lies hurt me" I whispered out and she sighed before rubbing my shoulder. "You want some ice cream pumpkin?" She asked me and I nodded a no. "I know he hurt you alot but I couldn't help but notice today how much happy he is whenever he talks about you" she informed me making a smile appear on my face but it wuickly turned into a frown as I remembered how we were basically done at this point. My phone buzzed on the table. I checked it to see many messages from the pogues asking if I was okay. I told them I'd be okay. Then I saw a text from Sarah saying Rafe didn't go home which immediately made me worried than ever. Was he getting coked out again? This made my heartbeat fasten. He was getting coked out because of me. I texted topper and kelce to know if Rafe was with them. They both replied with no.
I went to text Rafe but didn't send it cause I knew that I caused a lot of damage. But I didn't even think about the consequences on Rafe's health. I took in a big breath and turned off my phone. "I need sleep. Goodnight mum" I told mum and went up.