Mothers Heart

First Christmas

I always tried to make Christmas extra special for all my kids. Pat never did anything for the boys. I got Adam every second Christmas. I had a deal with John that I had the boys at Christmas. Being a single mother always made it hard but I did my best.
We had a massive tree in the living room. All my kids stayed the night.

I watch my ten months old Oliver crawl around the living room. Denise was at the table with Adam eating pancakes. Jack and Nia were sitting on the couch with Jay. Will and Justin were sitting on the floor by Oliver. Henry came up beside me wrapping around me just holding me. "Look at what we created" "I think I created most of it but thank you for helping" I smirk at him making him laugh. "Can we open presents" Denise asks having finished her food. I pick the eight year old up laughing "of course we can" I carry her to the living room sitting down with her on my lap. Justin holds a babbling Oliver. I barely get to hold him his always in the arms of his siblings. He loves being with his siblings though. "I think it's Jays year" Dean said smirking as he puts a Santa hat on his head. "I do to" Will said making jay groan. Him and Adam hated giving the gifts out. Jay groans getting up and walking over to the three "don't throw it either" I said making everyone laugh and jay just glare. Jay hands the presents before dramatically sitting down on the floor beside Denise. "Me first" Denise asked looking around "not this year it's Ollie's turn first" Jack told her making her pout. Justin hands me Oliver who laughs gleefully. I help him open the present seeing a music set thing. Next was Denise and we work our way around everyone opening One present each before we all open our presents. I smile watching Henry throw Oliver in the air making him laugh. It was a sight that I hope to never forget.

Justin was giving Denise a piggy back ride in the backyard through the snow. Jay had Oliver while talking to Dean, Will was talking to Jack, nia was going through her presents while talking to Sam. Adam was in the kitchen trying to steal food even though we had already eaten. Henry stands beside me watching them all much like me. "I'm thinking about adopting" "what" he was clearly confused I'm just happy all my kids were far enough away so they don't here. "Just one or two for in between Ollie and Denise I feel like there to big of a gap they need that person who's near their age...I wanted to give that to Jack but then all the stuff happened" "how bout we try for another" I stare at him in utter shock "I mean we can adopt so Denise has a friend her age but I think she will be fine if we don't" he points to Denise who's laughing in the backyard with Justin and Adam who i didn't even notice go outside. "But we can give little guy a sibling his age even though I think he will be fine his for all his siblings spoiling him on top of me and you" I smile we always knew he would be spoilt, that many older siblings plus two parents who didn't expect but love him unconditionally.

"Merry Christmas mumma" Adam said hugging me "merry Christmas" I reply kissing his head before going and sitting next to jay "hey it's Christmas you need to smile and laugh" he smiles at me "I know you've been having a tough time lately but ignore it it's Christmas more importantly it's Ollie's first Christmas and Denise and Nias first with us that's something to celebrate" he smiles leaning his head against my shoulder "thank you" "for what" "always making it so special even if it exhausted you always giving me and Will a safe place" "your my sons my two older ones at that don't tell Adam but you two Will always have a special place in my heart" he laugh "yeah Adams spot as youngest has been stolen multiple times first Jack the Neisey now Ollie" "don't think anyone can complain Ollie is super cute" "cutest baby?" he said it like it's a question "I'm not telling you who was the cutest baby" he just laughs "can't blame me for trying" Erin sat beside Jay making me smile. "Jay what do you think of this" Nia held up a shirt to him causing me to smile. Jay and Nia had a friendship like no other she was always asking him for opinions not caring what others thought just her big brother. "I already told you it's a cool shirt" Jack said rolling his eyes from his spot beside Sam "I don't care what you think I'm asking Jay" she snapped waving the shirt causing me, Sam and Erin to laugh "I think it's cool" Jay shrugged. I look around noticing Oliver is nowhere in sight. I didn't panic knowing his probably just with one of his siblings. Turning around I see him in Henry's arms. They were in the kitchen Henry giving him little bits of food and talking to him. This sight was the best. There was no laughing it was just a quiet moment. I much prefer the quiet moments they are the ones I could watch all day, the ones where no one knows your watching so it's just purely them.