Lealtà {18+}

LEALTÀ -Chapter thirty-four

Chapter thirty-four. You are a memory.

Kimberly Casey
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(Please play "the night we met" by Lord huron.)

I'm getting married to the love of my life. The one man I'm not scared of. He would never hurt me, or even look at me in the bad way. This is the best decision in my whole life.

"I love it!" I say, I pull on the necklace on my neck. It's so simple but yet so elegant. The gold is making my black hair pop, and it makes my skin look more tan.

"I'm glad." Desta smiles. The green eyes looking deep into mine. I feel a weird feeling in my body, but I love it. I'm so in love.

"You know. It's torture to love you." Desta says. I look confused at him. What is that supposed to mean?

"I love you so much that it hurts. And I'm so scared that I might lose you...I didn't live before I met you. Everything surrounded my life with work and more work. Honestly, you've saved my whole life. And I have no idea how to thank you." Desta takes my hand in his, and put it on his cheek. My heart skips a beat at the gesture. He wants me to calm him down.

"Oh my love. You've saved me so many times. I've searched for a trail to follow for so many years. But I've had no idea what the hell I'm supposed to do...but now that I've met you. My whole life is complete. I wish I could take back the night we met. And I don't mean the night you saved me...I mean the night we talked with eachother. When you hadn't touched me yet, or talked to me. When we sat on the bed, and spoke about your middle name, Ally and everything. Because that's the night I fell in love with you..."

Tears were floading down his cheeks. And I couldn't help but to cry myself. I had no idea how my life would look like, and hell, I don't even know how my life will look like next year! But I know that I'll always be in love with this man. My man...Desta Castello.

"I'm sorry you had to go through that...without anyone. I'm so sorry." He looks at me with so much pain in his eyes. I cry harder, at both the scene in front of me but also the memories. It was so lonely...I was so lonely. But I guess god had other plans. He saw me suffer...or now, if there is a god...

"Come here," Desta pulls me into his embrace, and holds me tight. I pull my arms around him, tight. And so does he. We don't let eachother go. And I will never do that.

"I know that there will never be a rest for me...but please. Just hold me tonight and don't let me go. Let me think that this is peace. Let me feel how it is to feel peace for once..." And so I do. I hold him, as he cries in my arms. As his tears running down my chest and my shirt. But I hold him. I hold my king.

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Desta Castello

"Why did the stars need you more then I did?"

I sit on the balcony, chewing on the nail on my thumb. The beer bottle in my left hand, and my back resting on the chair. The stars are shining so much tonight, and I look up at one of them. The one that shines the most. My mom...

Today is seventeen years since she was taken away from me. And two months since Ivanna died. The heavy feeling in my chest stays there. As it always does. I know that as a mafia boss you'll never get rest...but I can't help to feel...

Sad?

If I could I would leave this life. But I know that people need me. The underworld needs someone who's still loyal. But I want to have a somewhat normal life. But I think I know how to have that now. I have my queen, and I will marry her.