𝑾𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒊𝒏 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆, 𝒊𝒏 𝑶𝒄𝒕𝒐𝒃𝒆𝒓. | Kang Sae Byeok.

CHAPTER 36.

CHAPTER 36: Y/n's past, and her present, Sae Byeok.

TRIGGER WARNINGS! ⚠️⚠️⚠️
- mentions of self harm,

(if you know someone, or if you are that someone, if you ever need someone to talk to, my dms are open! <33)

Y/n's POV

"tonight, if anything happens we'll meet in my bed right there. Are you in?" 456 (Gi-Hun) asked us,

Sae Byeok suddenly looked away and removed her hands that was enter twined with mine,

Wha-...?

"I don't trust people."

My breath hitched, I was looking straight at her but she had her head down.

It was like my heart sunk, it... It hurt.

Sae Byeok...

"and that's twice as true for anyone who'd end up in here. Got it?"

Maybe she still needs time to trust you, Y/n....

Calm down.

But before I can even think of any happy thoughts I already feel my heart being tear off to bits,

I knew this moment was going to hurt,

But I didn't expect it to be this.... Painful?

Yeah.

"you think that's how it works, huh? Listen, you don't trust people here because you can, you do it because you don't have anybody else."

"I'll just go to the rest room."

I quickly stood up, not even glancing at her to look if she has her eyes on me.

It- it just hurts okay!

I can't stay there any longer, or else she'll just see me into bits,

And I wouldn't want that.

"looks like she's still having a hard time to trust people including you, huh?" I suddenly heard Kenji told me while he was looking at his nails,

Maybe you're right.

I looked away and wiped my tear that's been escaping my eyes.

Quickly making my way to the bathroom as I slammed it shut, my back rolling down the door while my tears drowned me.

What else do I have to do just to gain her trust? I thought everything was going well, I thought we were okay.

But I guess I'm wrong,

Like always.

"idiot, you're such an idiot Y/n. Why did you think it's all going well? You naive piece of shit."

Why do you have to be so unlikeable, Y/n? Nothing will work out for you, it's your fault.

Why do I even exist if I can't even live?

"I'm so tired." I'm so tired of pleasing everyone,

The door suddenly opened making me jump.

Sae...

"tired of what?"

My feet seemed like it had a mind of its own as I backed away from Sae while more tears escaped my eye,