𝐆𝐚𝐚𝐫𝐚 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐧𝐝 | ⁿᵃʳᵘᵗᵒ ˣ ᵇⁿʰᵃ

Chapter forty-six

third pov

"so what you're telling me is...you punched a hole in your wall..the first night you're here?" "..yes" silence.

Aizawa sighed "out of all people I would have expected bakugou but you Gaara?" a disappointed look on his face, Gaara looked to the side acting as if he didn't do anything bad

"Whatever, we'll get it fixed by tomorrow" was all that was said before Aizawa walked away and Gaara did the same, as he went back to his dorm, on his way there he was fortunately not stopped along the way

Gaara closed his door quietly and sat on his bed, it was still and quiet and there was no noise in the room, it was almost painfully quiet but Gaara found it just fine and continued to stare at the wall

Gaara knew there was something going on, he feels things more easily like he has no control over how he felt about things, was it his classmate's fault? todorokis? kankuro and temari? perhaps shukaku

that outburst wouldn't have happened if he had control over his emotions like how usually does, now whose fault was it?

not knowing what to do, Gaara got up and silently made his way somewhere subconsciously and once he was there it was too late to turn back as he had already knocked on the door

"Gaara? what are you doing here?" Gaara looked up "Mr. Aizawa, I..need-" Gaara paused his facial expression hardened "I have some questions" there was no way he was going to ask for help just now

what has he fallen to? to such lengths to ask others for help. how pathetic

Aizawa sighed "alright come on in" Gaara walked into the staff room where Aizawa was, they sat down and Aizawa put his hands together "what do you need help with" Gaara scoffed "who said I need help, I just have some questions" 

Gaara sneered at him, Aizawa gave an unimpressed look "right...now what is it" Gaara paused before continuing "I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm feeling emotions more openly and I don't feel comfortable about how I don't have control over them anymore"

Aizawa thought for a moment "throughout the months Gaara, you've grown as a person, along with strength, you were closed off and cold, control over everything you did which also goes for your emotions" 

Gaara listened closely, he wanted to know what Aizawa had to say "but all of that changing you're going through is not going to be all too great, from what I can tell you're traumatized, or in other words, fucked up in the head"

Gaara deadpanned as he listened 'cause I don't know that already..' he thought sarcastically "your morals and thought process is changing too rapidly for yourself and you quirk to handle" Gaara froze and glared at Aizawa 

how could he know of shukaku? did he? it must've been all might as he told him oh so long ago "from what I know Gaara, your quirk is a living being of sorts that has its own thought prosses, that has to interfere with you am I right?" 

Gaara nodded "how about you tell me about that first?" Aizawa slyly asked and Gaara could only nod "my quirk manifested at the age of six, I only found out about my quirk being its own living being, his name is shukaku and he's like a tanuki-like sand demon"

"well shukaku is able to speak to me from my head, he lives in my mindscape or my spiritual core. but there are times shukaku wants to take over my body and kill people." this caught Aizawa by surprise, this only made him be more wary of him

Gaara frowned "of course, you're like them" Gaara stared at him bitterly, he could sense Aizawa's emotions and how he was now wary "what do you mean Gaara?" Gaara scoffed "soon as you know more about me you suddenly feel wary and on guard. not like I'm gonna kill you"

"that's a maybe. shukaku is able to control my sand, body and thought process, although he had a harder time doing all of that as I am in control, I am always in control. I will always be in control." Gaara blankly stared at his teacher

Aizawa didn't know how to feel, to say Gaara was fucked up in the head is an understatement, he is right about being in control, Aizawa could only hope it stays that way "was there a time you weren't Gaara?" 

Aizawa played along with him, "of course not, I am absolute Aizawa" Gaara said with a frown 'its as if he went back to his old self, but more talkative it's unsettling' Aizawa stayed calm, he was ready to use his quirk if needed 

"you know Aizawa, I could sense others' presence and their emotions. you're not doing too well are you" was all Gaara said, Aizawa didn't make a move "I did not, quite a talented skill you have there Gaara" 

Gaara smiled, suddenly calm again "thank you, but I have to leave now," Gaara said, leaving the office, leaving Aizawa to his thoughts 'the kid needs some help, here I thought bakugou was bad enough'

Aizawa rubbed his temples in stress, "why did I become a teacher anyway.." 

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at one point I was gonna drop this book altogether, I almost did but people seem to like this book, I just lost all love for this story, same with bnha but I'll continue to write, can't guarantee long chapters but a chapter is a chapter.