Meant for more (Amezona)

Chapter 9

Amelias POV

I followed Arizona into the house and to her bedroom, which of course was decorated how i imagined with pink everywhere

"Don't laugh- I was 8 and just haven't changed it " she  says and I nod

"Not laughing" I tell her and we sit on her bed

"I'm sorry..... about today" i say

"No you were right, I was being selfish and I didn't think about your personal problems" she says

"Are you okay though?" She ask sincerely and I nod

"I'm okay, I promise. It's just complicated.... And I want to tell you, because if I'm being honest I haven't had any friends in a while. But, I can't tell you" I tell her

"Is it like the law you can't tell me or a personal battle?" She ask

"Personal" I answer

"But, I know it will change the way you look at me, and if others find out...." I say... I don't even want to think about what's going to happen if the news about Christopher comes out

"Okay.... Is this something that maybe you'll tell me eventually?" She ask

"Yea. It's something I want to tell you. Just. I'm not ready yet" I say and she nods

"I can accept that" she says and I smile

"Well.. what do you wanna do?" I ask

"I want to get to know you more.. outside of school, maybe that will help you tell me" she says and I nod

We just sat and asked each other a bunch of random questions

"What's the scariest thing you have ever done?" She ask and I froze, the scariest thing I have done was tell my mom I was pregnant. I was dreading that

Flashback

Somethings wrong... I can feel it. Ever since that night with Ryan I just felt sick, 

I didn't want to have sex. I mean I didn't tell him to stop but I just wanted to be liked. Ryan is a senior. I'm a freshman,

And he thinks I'm hot so why would I decline him that, he said that guys have needs, plus I'm only 14 so I believe him

But it's been almost 2 months, and I have missed my period. I think anyway, I have only been getting them for less than a year and it's only came a couple times but I haven't had it in the past two months

And I know that could mean I was pregnant. I only just turn 15 in two weeks,

I walked to the local drugstore and bought a test, the lady at the counter was judging me, I  am judging me

When I got home I peed on the stick and sure enough, I'm pregnant, I can't have a kid. I don't know how to raise one

What am I going to do? I guess I can call Addison,

I called Addison and asked her to come over and she said she will so in the mean time I guess it's better to tell my mom now

"Mom?" I ask, walking into her room where she sat

"What?" She ask

"I- I um, I'm pregnant" I tell her

"What?" She ask again

"What the fuck do you mean you're pregnant?" She ask

"You're 14 Amelia! Why the hell are you out there spreading your legs for people?" She ask getting out of her bed and coming over to me

I braced myself because I was for sure she was about to slap me or something

"Get out of my house" she says

"But mom" I protest

"No, you think you were all grown when you decided to have sex you can be all grown on the streets, you have 10 minutes to get out" she says and with tears in my eyes I packed a bag

Did I know where I was going? No but I knew I couldn't stay here

I walked out of the house and down the street until
I found a park, I sat on one of the benches and watched as mothers pushed their babies on the swings,

I can't give a child that, I'm a child myself. And what about Ryan? Is he still going to like me?

I had my hand on my stomach when addison called, I completely forgot about asking her to home over

"Hello?"

"Amelia! Where are you? Are you okay?"

"I'm fine Addie, and at the park near the house"

"I'm coming to get you"

Once addie hung up the phone I sighed

I don't know what they want me to do. I can't not have the baby. It was my fault I got pregnant in the first place

Addison arrived not long after and came over and hugged me as soon as she got there

"Let's get you home"'she says

"I can't go there.... Mom kicked me out" I say

"I know, and Derek is talking to her, Amelia you're not alone. No matter what that woman says." She says and I nod and she drives me home

Addison and I went into the house where my mom stood with Derek

"Fine. You want to stay? Go for it. But let me make this very clear Amelia. I will have nothing to do with that baby." She says and walks out of the house

"I'll take your back and forth to appointments but we really should talk Amelia" Addison says and I nod

"Thank you" I tell Derek

"Don't mention it. You did a really dumb thing Amelia and now you're dealing with the consequences, but either way mom shouldn't treat you like that"

Present

"You okay?" Arizona ask, bringing me out of my thoughts

"Yea- I haven't don't anything scary" I say answering her question

"It's the secret you can't tell me isn't it? You went blank for a few seconds" she says and I sigh

"Yea... I'm sorry" I say

"Don't be. Just know when you're ready to tell me I'll listen" she says

"I know, but when I do tell you. You have to promise not to tell anyone. Not even April, or your brother" I say and nods

"Swear" she says and I smile

Maybe Addisons right, maybe Arizona won't tell anyone

Maybe I'll be able to have a friend, and be a mother... just maybe

At 7 I messaged and made sure Christopher was asleep and when Addison told me he was I relaxed a little

Last time they watched him I put him to bed so this is the only night I haven't

"I should be getting home" I tell Arizona, it was past 8 now

"You could stay?" She suggest

"As much as I want to, and I really do, I can't" I say and she nods

" maybe one day this week?" I tell her, I would just need to leave early enough to get Christopher to daycare and me to school still

"Okay.. let me know" she says and I nod

"I will" I tell her and she walks me outside

"Thank you.. for today, I had fun" i tell her and she smiles

"Me too.. I'll see you soon Amelia"

Till next time❤️