sometimes i get this feeling
that i am not human
maybe it's the numbness
but it's as if there's a wall
between me and them
and i can't seem to understand
what they're saying
because i can't see them
i can't hear them
so i imitate
do the thing with the eyes
and the lips
what humans do
but it's not me
because i want to hurt
or at least i have these thoughts
i wrapped my hands
around your neck
until i realize you can't breathe
let go
this hollow body of mine
is a vessel for violence
for something hateful
resistance is futile
so i sit down
pull my knees to my chest
and hide my face
i am being engulfed
