i used to love too hard
but now everything is at a distance
sometimes i like the calm
but more often
i feel lonely
and longed for attachment
be it a thing
a person
a place
but the passion is gone
i only watch from afar
i remind myself
i'm still human
i think i am
i'm just not interested
aw yeah that's cute
oh wow that's dope
ah how pretty
i say in monotone
i guess
that's how it is
sometimes
but i look at others
and wish i could feel
as much as they could
talking about their interests
so full of youth and enthusiasm
i force a smile
so i fit in
but
i'm not like them
hm
i hope this is temporary
