sometimes reality is scary
i don't know if that's how others feel
but i get scared
so i have some distractions
writing is one of them
but i don't really write
the visuals play through my mind
and putting it into words is a process
a long one
i have a character
she's somewhat me so pretty generic
and you know she's hurt
but does she choose to hurt other people?
or forgive them?
and talk other people out of their ruts
my mine goes to hurting
but i can't do it
if i let her be the person
that i know i shouldn't be
maybe some of these dark feelings will leave me
but i can't help but
think about her ending
her fall
both ways, she will fall
by being vengeful, she will hurt a lot of people
but mostly herself
by being kind, she will hurt herself
like i do
because i'm not sure how to write a kind character
who isn't suffering in this world
finding out their boundaries?
where do you draw the lines?
when is it okay?
or it doesn't matter
because it's just a piece of fiction
about a goddess who is punished
