my depression
my anxiety
has been weighing on me
i don't feel so good
and i forget how to act
and you'll never know
how much you still mean to me
i'm sorry i'm so numbed out
you wouldn't know
because i wouldn't talk
so what did i expect
i'm losing sleep
over you, my dearest
but you'll never know
oh you'll never know
because i won't say
i shut down and shut myself in
i didn't intend to be so weak
but my dearest, i still love you
i just can't show it like i used to
cause i just feel so low
i want to cry and hold you
tell you how much you mean to me
but somehow i can't reach you
my arms too short
my heart too scared
but i guess that's it for us
all those fond memories
of when i was happy with you
it was a beautiful dream
slowly bleeding into reality
where i am unable to walk alongside you
the old me isn't returning
this is the real me
and i'm sorry
but i still love you
