Breaking The Wall Of His Insecurities ✔️

part : 68

"Promise me that you will never ignore me", Anika asked, Shivaay nodded and then realised she need assurance in words when Anika looked outside

"I promise", Shivaay said and sat back in his seat again.

"I love you Shivaay. I felt that I don't exist for you when you were ignoring me", Anika confessed and complained about his behaviour. Shivaay tried replying to her confession but was unable to speak even a word. He felt sort of words whenever he sees her love for him and her care. Her beautiful eyes are his weakness, he wants to reply to her but every time whenever he looks into her eyes, he feels nervous.

"I... I am sorry for that. Now keep smiling", he replied

"Sure with you, I always smile", Anika said and placed her hand on his which was resting on the gear

"You are flirting with me", Shivaay chuckled

"So what? I can flirt with my sweet husband ", Anika replied and gestured for him to come near her, she felt lazy to open her seatbelt again and called him. Shivaay asked what in worried about when Anika kissed his cheeks

"And This is a gift for my husband who hates sweets", Anika said, Shivaay couldn't control his blush, he thought her hand was paining again or maybe she is having some other problem but getting this type of sweet dish from her he is happy.

"No... instead, I love sweets made by these hands ", Shivaay replied to her and intertwined their fingers together

"T...then you will get it today. Now start driving", Anika told him taking her hand back. Shivaay nodded and started driving.

"Tell me what will you like? Kheer, ladoo, halwa or something else?", Anika asked knowing well what he will answer but just to tease him she asked

"Whatever you like ", Shivaay replied and smirked mentally as he know she will be shocked hearing his reply

"Then is karela juice fine ?", Anika asked sarcastically because he defeated her

"Your wish", Shivaay replied and continued driving. He dropped her in her office and hugged her when Anika was about to go.

"Will you come early today?", Anika asked and rubbed her hand softly on his chest, Shivaay replied in a no and held her hand as her hand was giving him goosebumps. He loves when she touches him with her right but when he sees the crowd he doesn't like her for choosing such places for showing right.
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Shivaay came back from the office early as his work was finished and thought to surprise Anika, that was the reason he lied to her. The past few days were hard for him, ignoring her was difficult. He opened the wardrobe take out clothes to change and noticed a diary between clothes. He picked up a diary and sat on the bed. He flipped pages and started reading further from the point where he left reading.

I will ask mummy Ji to give this to his wife so if you are his wife I don't know what is your name because you will get this diary very late. I don't know if Shivaay is a person whom I wanted him to be or just like his father...
If he is like him then please give him this diary once. He will change for sure

If he is a nice man then I want you to read and continue this diary further. His father used to talk rudely with him. Every time he used to shout at him and....beat him as he didn't want a child that time. In short, Shivaay was the main root of his anger

My child suffered a lot of bachas. I killed him and myself just to end Shivaay's suffering. I knew if I didn't kill myself then taunts will kill him that his mother is a murderer. I know I can't handle him right now because I am mentally broken. I know society will not accept me and soon I will be in jail and in either way I have to stay away from my son but my dead body will help him. Oberoi family will accept him for sure, if not for love then for pity for sure because they knew what I was going through. I don't know if his family will ever forgive me for killing Shakti or not so this is the last option for me and my Shivaay