Breaking The Wall Of His Insecurities ✔️

part: 70

Shivaay came back home and went directly towards the kitchen as he guessed Anika would be there. When he entered the kitchen he noticed her cleaning the kitchen. Ladoos were already prepared and placed on the table. He smiled widely when he recalled her diary again. This diary became his favourite now because he got to know about her views about him.

"Anika I'm so happy", Shivaay told her and hugged her from the back, Anika smiled seeing him happy. This is what she always wants, his happiness and smile

"Why?", Anika asked

"Because you are best. I..... We met each other through Priyanka but I never felt like we were strangers before. I feel like I know you from childhood. I don't know how to tell you w.. what I feel for you", Shivaay fumbled finding it difficult to express himself and his emotions. Right now he is happy, due to which his emotions are uncontrollable.

Anika rubbed he hands on his hands which were on her waist softly. She won't know if whatever Shivaay is saying is due to his guilt for coming late or not but this felt so special.

"Stop buttering me Shivaay. If you are doing this because you are guilty of coming late then don't. This is not needed instead, tell me where were you?", Anika asked and looked into his eyes. Shivaay kept quiet for a while as he started to think about his excuse again. He cursed his mind which forgot what he told her.

"No I am not instead I have a valid reason for the same", Shivaay said. Anika nodded, she don't know if he is saying right it was not, but she trusted him. She knows very well that Shivaay will not lie till it is important. She removed his hands softly from her waist and started to clean the kitchen again

"Should I help?", Shivaay asked

"No thanks. I'm happy at least you came back.. where were you?", Anika asked. She thought she will not ask this question but her curiosity didn't let her ignore the question. Does she want to know why her husband is so happy?

"A... already told you... Here is your ice cream", Shivaay replied to her and gave her a bag which contains ice cream for every member of the family

"What about these then? ", Anika asked while talking about ladoo which she prepared just now. Shivaay ate one ladoo and pushed one inside her mouth

"These are delicious, yummy! We will eat them as well. First ice cream and then your ladoo", Shivaay said, Anika looked at him angrily

"Then I'm sure you will waste them", Anika said and looked aside. Shivaay kissed her hands first and then he held her shoulder tightly. He knows she is not that angry so talking with her is very easy now.

"No, I will not. Let them cool for some time Anika. These will stay fresh", Shivaay replied, Anika, nodded as even though she know ladoo need some time to cool

"Ok. By the way, I knew it before ", Anika told him

"Great then. Ok first have your dinner then I have a very important thing to tell you ", Shivaay said and kissed her hands. Anika smiled, she don't know the reason but can feel clearly how happy he is. She is curious to know his important thing. Is that why he was so happy?
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After dinner, everyone retired to their rooms. At the dining table, Shivaay felt happier when Omru asked for ladoo in a sweet dish (desert) rather than ice cream. Now both of them entered the room, Shivaay pulled Anika in a hug again. He closed his eyes recalling her whole diary. He knows everything that she feels for him but does she know?

"Now tell me why are you so happy?", Anika asked because of curiosity. She was not satisfied with the answer when he told her she is the reason. Even if she is then she wants to know how? Shivaay tightened the hug feeling her warmth, he love her so much but can't describe it.

"Because Anika I...... Don't look at me like this" he started telling her but when he looked into her eyes which were staring at him, he felt nervous and forgot what he was going to say. He could not complete it after I complained

"Where should I look then?", Anika asked

"Anywhere just not in my eyes", Shivaay told her and took a long breath to start telling her about his feelings. Anika looked aside as per his instructions and waited for him to start

"Before meeting you I never believed that a relationship like marriage can work but now after meeting you and staying with you, I think it can work. I don't know from when but my views started changing regarding my own life. I used to think I have everything then why should I marry? Why should I destroy someone's life?

And now I always think about how to help you in your life to make it easy. I love these changes in myself. I want to tell soo much that you will feel on top of the world like I felt ", Shivaay told her lovingly. His soft voice and words took Anika's heart again, she looked at him and asked

" Shivaay are you indirectly trying to say...", Anika asked him As she guessed what comes next. He held millions of emotions even when he interrupted her in middle

"Don't interrupt even if you guessed it. It is already taking a lot of courage", Shivaay told and looked down. Anika smiled and placed her hand on his cheeks softly

"You know right that I will never reject your feelings then what type of fear you are having?", Anika asked

"I have.. it is difficult for me. Now keep quiet ", Shivaay told her and closed his eyes to think about words. He started to think from the start

"This marriage this bond is very important for me now. I assure you that I will never give this place to anyone. Anika no one cared for me this much as you do. The way you give me the priority is the best feeling for me. Yes family love me and I can't disagree ever but still, I used to feel loneliness. After marriage, I never felt lonely. All thanks to you

First I thought I am just doing everything because of respect and now when I realised I understood that it was because of my....my...", Shivaay stammered and looked aside again. He thought by long para he will find it easy to talk about his feelings but no. He fumbled when it came to confess

"There is no need to trouble yourself Shivaay I understood what you want to say and I'm happy with this", Anika said and hugged him

"B... Because of my love. I love you Anika", Shivaay confessed with closed eyes taking a lot of courage he fumbled in middle but imagined no one is here and confessed his feelings. He looked at her to see her emotions. Anika tightened her hug and kissed his cheeks

"Thank you so much for confessing your feelings for me. I love you too Shivaay ", Anika replied and jumped in excitement because of his confession. She is feeling on top of the world after hearing him. She cupped her mouth to control herself from behaving like a mad girl. His voice did magic to her which can drive her crazy anytime. She now wants to go to some isolated place and jump in excitement...

"Tomorrow we will visit your home... I mean both are yours but you must be missing..them", Shivaay told her

"Stay with me there then because I can't forget what Daksh said ", Anika told him

"Sure but even I have one condition ", Shivaay said

"Which?", Anika asked

"Tell everything to Gauri,", Shivaay requested her. Anika looked at him shocked how can she tell her?
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Good morning ♥️♥️. Have a nice day🥰

At night I slept 😅that's why couldn't update . Yes, this is short and updates will be short. Hope it is fine otherwise I will update long chapters taking some extra time