My Secret Love❤😚 (Completed)

Part 15

Standing near the window, Shehnaaz looked up, staring at stars with moist eyes. It had been days she had lost her child but her pain didn't left her, with time it had only increased, the void in heart was painful. She was missing her child, missing their angel.

"I'm sorry angel. Sidharth said you don't hate me. You don't hate me na angel? I can't bear your hatred. Please Forgive me baby. Your mumma is not a bad person." Shehnaaz said looking at star, tears were streaming down her cheeks. Talking to angel, her daughter had decreased her pain a bit. She continued looking at stars, wondering how her future would have been if she hadn't lost her baby. She could have got the family she always wanted. She could have got someone who would love her without any condition.

"You were pregnant?" A female familiar voice brought her back into cruel reality, Shehnaaz wiped her tears with back of her and turned around and gasped slightly seeing the person standing in front of her.

"Mary Aunty." Shehnaaz whispered to herself, it was Mary, an employee in Sidharth's office. Since Sidharth is not going office these days and working from home, She stays in mansion at day time, reporting to him about office. She is middle aged lady with heart of gold, she is very nice lady and shehnaaz likes her very much. She had seen Shehnaaz so depressed from few days but wasn't aware of the reason but now she knows it, she was shocked and could understand her pain.

"My child. I never knew this little doll is going through so much pain, I can understand your pain, sweetheart." Mary says as she walked toward her, she was aware of what kind of relation Shehnaaz share with Sidharth, their boss but she never questioned them about it knowing she had no right to comment on their personal life. Mary kept her hand on her head, Shehnaaz closed her eyes.

"I won't say its okay because i know its not okay but have some faith in god, He does everything for a reason. If he had snatched away your child from you then very soon he will fill your life with happiness again." Mary said in comforting tone. Tears were endlessly falling down from shehnaaz's eyes.

"You know Sidharth Sir must be going through the same and you know what is the worst part, that he can't even express it. He must be dying from inside. And you have to be by his side, for him you have to come out of your shell that you have built around yourself and be with him, share his pain too which he had hide within him. Seeing you like this, it pain him more." Mary told her with tenderness in her voice, Shehnaaz had watched two of them from distance but know they are broken and need each other. Though Sidharth had always maintained his rough, strong business man image in front to world but his eyes gives away his feelings.

"Don't tell anyone about this. Please." Shehnaaz pleaded to her, knowing if this news leaked out then paparazzi would make it worse and it would destroy his image.

"I won't." Mary said, her voice was serious and honesty reflecting through it, understanding the depth of the situation she nodded. Mary caressed her head and left the room, knowing she need some time alone. After she left Shehnaaz went to bed and sat on it, her mind was wandering around mary's words. It was true, he never showed his pain to her, was by her side, consoling her, taking of her care, trying to make her smile but what about him, she had him but he, he was alone. Walking around with small smile but inside he was in unendurable pain.

"No, I won't sit and cry over my fate, I will try to be happy, for him and for our angel. He might not love me but he does loves his angel and I'm sure angel too loves her daddy and must be sad seeing him like this but I promise you angel, I will keep him happy, I will bring real smile on his face." Shehnaaz thought to herself, promising her angel. Wiping her tears away she stood up from her place and went to closet and took out a white dress. Changing into white dress, she come out of his bedroom.

"Where is Sidharth?" Shehnaaz asked one of the servant passing by. After getting his reply, she ran toward the terrace where he was. Her steps came to an halt when she reached terrace entrance and saw him standing there, Facing the sky, with lost look on his face. She walked toward him and hugged him from behind which broke his reverie. He turned his head sideways and looked at her.

"Shehnaaz? What happen?" Sid asked her softly, he hold her hand and brought her front of him by pulling her gently.

"Nothing. Yesterday you asked me na, where i want to go for new year?" Shehnaaz asked him softly, She knows that if she try to act normal it would make him better, Seeing her like that, broken hurt him then she won't show her pain to him and make him happy which will decrease her pain too, seeing him happy is all she want now.

"So where you want to go?" Sidharth asked her, Holding her waist he brought her in his embrace.

"Disney Land, Hongkong." Shehnaaz told him, smiling softly at him. Sidharth was happy seeing her coming out of her shell, she was again smiling which he like the most.

"Sure. I will tell my assistant to get all the arrangements done." Sidharth told her, kissing her forehead. He took out his cell phone and dialed his assistant's number and told him to get his private jet ready and do other paper work that would be needed.

"Private jet? We are going there by your private jet, Sidharth?" Shehnaaz questioned him once he cuts the call. She gave him an amused look.

"Yes, We are going by my private jet. It will save our time and give us privacy too." Sidharth told her softly, tucking a strand of her hair behind her ear.

"Sidharth, Can i ask for something?" Shehnaaz whispered, wrapping her arms around his neck. He shivered slightly, her touch. He had missed it so much.

"Off course kitty. Ask me anything, I'll give you." Sidharth replied her, Shehnaaz smiled, placing her head on his chest, closing her eyes.

"Share your pain with me." Shehnaaz told him, tightening her grip around him. With her words his eyes moisten, he tighten his grip around her and sobbed, hiding her face in crook of her neck. Shehnaaz's eyes filled with tears seeing him broken, but she was happy that he was taking it out, he was letting his pain out. He had always been strong man, never showed his emotions to anyone but today, he couldn't stop himself from crying for his child's death.

"You know when doctor told me you had a miscarriage, i was blank, had no idea what happened suddenly. Something broke in me. I might not believe in all the relationship crap but having a child specially a daughter, It was something i can't express in words. I love kids and always wanted to have my own. And you were giving me that but see what fate did to us, She took away our child away from us before we could even its growing in your womb. It was horrible feeling, Shehnaaz" Sidharth was speaking his heart out, his voice was shaking because of crying. Shehnaaz was crying along with him.

"I know Sidharth, I know. And I'm sorry because of me we lost angel" Sidharth broke the hug and cupped her face, he kissed her head and look into her eyes.

"I know I might sound harsh but i think whatever happens, happen for good. Even if you didn't had miscarriage then I would have lost you, you could never make it through. There were only 10% chances you and baby would have survived in this pregnancy. Fate and our angel wanted her mumma to stay here beside her father, Don't blame yourself. Don't make her sad by blaming yourself. Our angel will be with us, very soon." Sidharth told her, he wanted her to never blame herself.

" angel ka saath humare saath nhi tha. Not physically but she is always here with us, watching over us from there. Our angel is up there, In protection of your babaji. " Sidharth said pointing at sky. Shehnaaz looks at him through her tears, she came here to console him but see, he is the one who is consoling her. Something would never change and same goes to him and his care toward her.

"But.."

"No but shehnaaz. I know its difficult but promise me you will move on. Promise me you will never blame yourself for our loss. It was something destined to happen, if not that day then after some time. It was no body's fault." Sidharth held out his hand in front of her, Shehnaaz nodded and kept her hand in his. She hugged him tightly, knowing it's time she let go of past and move on, with her angel's memories with her.