The Twins

Chapter Twenty Eight: I can't Breathe

I'm falling, I can't catch my breath or Natalie's gaze to tell her I'm not ok. She's hurt me severely by taking this child away, it may not have been mine, but this baby could mean so much. It could mean her finding a switch to her dark side, it could mean our family legacy continued, or well I guess I should be saying it could have. Why do I feel so inferior right now? I look towards the corner near me, "there you are, It's been a minute, old friend" I whisper. I haven't seen the call of the void in a hot minute. But there it is, slowly creeping into my head again. Farther and farther. I roll over and hug Aiden, acting as if I saw no one. The void looks as if something, a human perhaps, was eaten and spit out and burned alive then finally covered in bandages. Even facing the complete opposite direction I still get chills. I get up, careful not to wake the sleeping werewolf in my bed. Glancing back at it one more time, I decided to go for a walk. I'm wandering around recklessly not watching where I'm going or who I'm near. Or even how I feel..... Although it's not important. I'm thinking long and hard about the baby, when I feel a white hot burning sensation in my lower stomach, but I've decided to ignore it. The thoughts i"m having about all of this are more pressing to me. The pain continues to grow strong, it's only when the pain has become unbearable that I look down. OMG. When did this happen? I really should pay more attention to where I'm going, I've been impaled with part of a tree, and had it been any higher it might have killed me, but it would seem that there's a rather large knot in the branch. And the more I struggle to get off of it, the farther down the branch I slide being lifted into the air by a branch on a tree. I gasp feeling the breath catch in the back of my throat I can't breathe. I think the branch has entered my lungs. I try breathing one last time, only when I do it hurts so bad I can't contain my pain. I let out the loudest heartbreaking scream I've ever heard come from my own mouth. It's been 5 minutes and no one is coming. I couldn't have wandered that far from camp could I? "AWHOOOO" I hear the howl near me. I glance around trying to find the source. With no prevail I scream louder. "SOMEONE HELP ME. I CAN'T FEEL MY LEGS." I'm on the verge of crying when the moon moves just right for me to see it's full. When it dawns on me that not the whole pack has rings made yet, Is when the panic sets in. Now I have to be quiet if I were to be found by a wolf not in control I would most likely get bitten. And I'm not ready to die. No matter how much my brain and pain tell me otherwise. And even if I were ready to die, not saying I am, I wouldn't want to go out that way. I heard it's painful and you go crazy and kill people and spill your biggest secrets. I can't have that happen to me. I get as still as I can Slowly sliding down this branch, tears dripping down my face with every centimeter. Growling begins behind Kate. I freeze frightened, all the color draining from my skin, when all of a sudden Aiden pops out from behind a tree. "KATE!" I motion for him to whisper. "There's an uncontrolled wolf nearby." I whisper in a panic, my words coming out rushed. "And? I'm the Alpha, they will stand down for me, Human form and wolf form alike." I sigh with sudden relief. Out of nowhere Aiden is on guard and every hair on my tiny body is standing on edge. "Aiden, what's wrong?" I'm definitely panicking now. The growl is louder and closer. "Aiden, I thought You said-" I'm cut off by a growl/voice from Aiden before I can finish what I had to say. "Back down! She's MINE!" he called me his.... I smile, forgetting everything around me at the moment. FOCUS KATE. you could die. This is serious, be alert damn it. The Wolf appears in front of me, it's huge, its fur is red, all except for a single patch on the nape of its neck. I recognize this wolf. Why is it so familiar? "Aiden! Leave it be. It is self aware!" I shout, not knowing how I know that. But when I look at this wolf all I see is someone Friendly, Maybe even someone I know. "Shylo?" I ask, chancing on all chances that it's her. When the wolf continues glaring at Aiden I know I'm wrong. "Duchess???" I ask, calming down when the wolf's head snaps in my direction. "Who's Duchess?" I realize at this moment I didn't call her Sophie, only I ever called her Duchess. She never liked the name unless it was me using it. Ignoring Aiden I immediately begin talking to the wolf in front of me whom I now know as my friend. "Wait, but you didn't want a Kainite ring, how are you self aware right now if you didn't choose to turn?" She growls and I realize she can't answer me. "Right, sorry I forgot wolf form and what not. How foolish of me?" She saunters over and lays down at my feet as if she wants to help but can't, and I know this to be true, not much she can do right now. But Aiden can. "Aiden, You gonna help me up or...." I trail off. Watching him as he snaps his attention back on me. "How did this even happen in the first place?" Aiden asks the wolf gently howling in agreement to his questioning. "I'm not sure, if we're being honest I had a lot on my mind and started walking, it's all kind of a blur from there." I remember what happened. I felt the pain, I just didn't care enough to pay attention. I was reckless. I was, am Suicidal. I give Sophie a look, and I know she understands what's going on with me in that one look. This isn't the first time me and her have been through something like this together. She knows me too well, if I hadn't given her the look, she probably still would have figured it out. Ok correction for all those nosy bitches reading my journal right now, even though you should put it down, because it's none of your damn business it's mine, I'm not suicidal, I'm just lost and in pain, and truth be told at the moment I just want the pain to stop. Anyway I'm still stuck on this damn branch, you'd think he would have helped me off already. "Why didn't you wake me up? I would have walked with you Kate." He asks, honestly I asked myself the same thing just ten minutes ago. "Uhm Aiden, I'm still stuck...." I cringe as the talking moves me farther down the branch, his head snaps up to my torso as if he's only just realized I was impaled. Grabbing my lower waist Aiden slowly slides me forward, the branch manages to ease its way further into my lungs, don't get me wrong. I'm not a doctor. But assuming by the blood I choke out, It's definitely my lungs. I ended up spitting blood all over Aiden, Which then made me feel bad, making me cry in turn. I rush an apology spitting up more blood, this time all over myself and Sophie. "OMG. I'm so sorry Duchess." I blurt, which she growls in response to, I'm probably definitely guessing here, but I'm pretty sure that growl was somewhere along the lines of 'Don't cry you're only making it worse' i could be wrong. But either way it's true, I am only making it worse. He tugs a little more, enticing a scream from me. "Aiden STOP!" I scream. I know he's only trying to help but it hurts too much. I take some deep breaths sliding back just a tad on the branch, when I kick Sophie by accident. I gasp having had an idea. "I'm sorry in advance, Duch." she whines, i've done this enough with her, she knows it's going to hurt a bit. Pushing my foot as far down as I can making contact with her I begin siphoning her head. 'Why didn't you just self siphon?' you might be wondering, well in case you forgot, I'm stuck on a branch and can't even reach any part of my body without doing more damage. She whines even louder, I didn't mean to hurt her, but it always hurts. No avoiding it. I wrap my hands around the branch behind me, "Aiden I need you under me to catch me, Duchess, you might want to move.." I say putting my plan into action. As soon as Aiden is under me with his arms out, I whisper "Infiante" Blowing the branch in half under my hands, I fall into Aiden's open arms. The branch snagging his shirt and shoving deeper into my lungs and nicking my heart, "PULL IT OUT" I scream, losing control of my body as I begin to fall limp. Aiden grabs the branch, yanking it out quick and fast. I'm able to breathe again... I gasp for air. "Motus" I utter under my breath, shoving both of them away from me. I'm hungry. And currently those two are on the menu. "Aiden turn, both of you get out of here! I can't control myself right now." I holler at them. I hear bones crunching alerting me to the fact that Aiden has listened to me, or so I thought. "Kate. Calm Down. You won't hurt me. I believe in you." Whispers Sophie. "Duchess... ho...how- How did you?" I choke out. "It's not Important Kate, what is though, is your control. I know, You're hungry. Aren't you?" How does she know? I nod in response, my throat burning too bad to answer. She begins stepping towards me, "Stay Back!!" I shout, taking a step away from her. "Kate, It's me, you're fine. I promise you won't hurt me." she steps forward again, this time I let it happen. She keeps inching closer and closer to me, I hiss when She's close enough for me to hear her heart throbbing in her neck. "Duchess, Don't. I'm begging you. I can't control myself." She steps closer once again. This time I can't hold back, I rush towards her at full speed. Latching on to her throat. As I'm feeding and losing control she whispers something to me. And I snap out of it, pulling away, I sink my teeth into my own wrist forcing my blood to her mouth, healing her in a matter of seconds. "Thank you. I'll never forget that." she smiles knowing she finally got that off of her chest. "I'm sorry about your throat...." I whisper. "I'm fine." she responds with a faint smile.