When the Sky, Cries

Chapter 22

"Happy 2nd Anniversary!" 

Masaya kong binati at niyakap si Rhoyde nang makita ko siya sa field kasama ang mga kaibigan ko.

"Sana all!" Sigaw ni Mercedes. Nagtawanan naman sila ng mga kaibigan ko. 

"Saan tayo mamaya?" Nakangiti kong tanong at umupo sa tabi niya. Ibinaba niya naman ang blueprint na hawak niya at tumingin saakin. 

"May cafe akong nakita. Dadalhin kita doon." Nakangiting sumagot si Rhoyde saakin bago may tinanaw sa likuran ko. Pasimple naman akong lumingon sa likuran ko at natanaw yung Divine na naglalakad papalapit saamin kasama yung iba pa nilang mga kaibigan. 

"Mauna na ako.." Pahina ng pahina ang boses kong nagpaalam kay Rhoyde. He didn't even bother to look at me!

I continued walking until I got back in my classroom. 

I had a hard time focusing and understanding  our case study. I think it's because of Rhoyde. In two years that we've been together, there wasn't a time that I didn't think that there's something's wrong in our relationship. Rhoyde changed. His attitude changed. He's always mad. He's always in a hurry. I barely talk to him! I do understand that he's busy with his studies. But I am also busy like him! I make time for Rhoyde, I always do.

"Birthday ko na bukas!" Excited na sabi ni Camilla. Napangiti naman ako at humarap sa kaniya.

"Ilang taon ka na?" I asked.

"Twenty." Camilla winked her eyes. "Hindi na ako teen." Malungkot niya pang dagdag. Napailing nalang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagkain ng lunch.

"Nasaan si Marie?" Halos mabilaukan na ako sa tanong ni Mercedes. Halos hindi na rin sumasabay si Marie saamin mag lunch.

"Siguro busy. Baka nag visite ng site kasama mga kaklase." I tried to convince Mercedes pero parang hindi siya kuntento sa narinig.

"Ayon si Rhoyde eh. Hindi ba engineering din s'ya?" Kunot-noo kong sinundan ng tingin kung saan nakatanaw si Mercedes.

I saw Rhoyde laughing with Divine. Kung hindi ako nagkakamali ay si Divine 'yon. I immediately looked away.

"Luh? Sino yung kasama niya?" Gulat na tanong naman ni Camilla. "Baka naman babae niya 'yan Jihan ah? Baka nagtatago ka lang saamin? Kailan pa 'yan?" Sunod-sunod ang tanong niya.

Walang alam ang mga kaibigan ko sa mga nangyayari saamin ni Rhoyde. Minsan lang din naman nila kaming nakikitang magkasama. Kung mag post ako ng picture namin ni Rhoyde sa social media ay hindi rin madalas. Wala silang alam na parang hindi na masaya si Rhoyde. Hindi ko alam. Wala akong idea. Hindi ko rin naman alam kung paano ikukwento, o kung kanino sasabihin. I don't want to bother my friends after all.

"Block mate niya 'yan." Ngumiti ako at niligpit na ang gamit bago tumayo. "Mauna na ako sainyo ah? May case reporting kami." Hindi ko na hinintay pa na makasagot si Camilla at Mercedes at naglakad na ako palayo. Nakasalubong ko pa si Shean at Cheonsa pero hindi ko na rin sila napansin.

I remembered the first five months of my relationship with Rhoyde. we have no problem. we are happy. we did nothing but make good memories.

Whenever Rhoyde and I fight about small things, we fix it right away and never make our fight worse. Whenever we fight about big things, we make sure we talk about it and discuss it well before we go home. We are both fine. We were fine. I was fine.

But after a year of our relationship, I noticed something's different about him.

His actions changed. He became quiet. Whenever we fight, he turns his back on me and leaves me alone. I don't understand him. I can't understand him! He always makes excuses. it's like.. it's like he never runs out of excuses.