𝐓𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐭 | 𝐓.𝐇

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑 ; 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝟒𝟑

Locking the door to mine and Thomas somewhat shared bedroom, I sat on the bed with my hands on my bump rubbing it softly. Humming a song
"Even if he doesn't want you I'll love you bub"
I whispered to the baby while secretly telling myself that.

I went to turn on the radio and listen to some music as it played, it was the late 60s almost 70s. New music new everything was happening. Hoyt came into the room with a knock after he let himself in already.

"Can I talk with you?" He asked not caring for the answer i was gonna say and sat himself in the rocking chair he had stolen a while back when I found out about the baby.

Sighing "sure Charlie.."
he turned the rocking chair my way before looking at me in a way no one could describe
"Look..I know that uhm- I know you and Tommy are having your little outbursts moments and I just want you to know that I- uhm...well I- " he sighed almost getting ready to embarrass himself ."I'm here for you- and well obviously the others but Monty will die soon and well for mama - who the hell knows" he sighed leaning back drinking his beer

Smiling a bit I sat on the edge of the bed listening to his dark, dry humor
"Youll be a great uncle to my son"
He chuckled at what I said "you really do have to understand Thomas though and his reason. You know he'd never hurt you or that baby. He's scared and nervous just as much as you are"
Hoyt looked at me

Nodding "I know I just wish he'd tell me" I laid back in bed looking at the ceiling "you want me to tell you about his school years more better?" He asked taking a bunch of picture out of his pocket

"Why do you have so many?" I asked
He groaned getting ready to speak
"Now listen here, you better not tell anyone about this or him got it?" He asked getting closer to me

I nod vigorously "well..I love Thomas you know? Helped raise the kid- I know I never show it but to be honest" he showed me a baby picture of Thomas "I've kept this in my back pocket for years..and I know I know it's weird but- anyways onto his school" he never ended up finishing what he had to say about the pictures like I hoped.

He leaned back In his chair
"There was the four kids, a girl and three boys.
Thomas eventually killed them all. They where bikers. Anyways, those kids ran him out of school, he'd come home with bite marks, black eyes, cuts and glue in his hair and trust me thomas had some curly hair when he was young" he chuckled thinking back onto the days when he'd watch Luda Mae take the glue out of his hair.

"But Thomas was tall? Right? Wouldn't they be scared?" I asked

Hoyt laughed a bit "Thomas didn't grow till he was about 14, he left school in 5th grade. Tommy never made it to middle school...he was way shorter then the kids but then something happened over summer and the weirdo ended up getting taller, it felt like every week he'd grow. Mama used to have a wall where she'd write his height down every month but he got too tall and she couldn't reach"

"I was jealous of the kid. I'm only 5'10- fuck he's barley 28 or something and he's 6'6..you like tall guys huh?" He chuckled then smirked

Blushing a bit at the thought of Thomas and my height difference.
"I didn't like him for his height"
"Sure sure..most dumb girls these days will date a guy if they got abs and height. Women amaze me with the stupidity they hold." Hoyt stayed rolling his eyes

"Don't be mad no women want you" I chuckled
He laughed. I knew he was joking
"I would never be mad" he said pretending to be hurt.

"Do you ever wanna leave texas? Like move?" I asked looking at him
Hoyt shrugged "kid..you wanna know something?"

I nod "look..this family hasn't had it good for a long time. Mama used to be a teacher in her young days..and..well I really was a sherif but things happen and now we're here in this shit whole. You know, thomas hasn't had any real friends other then his cousins."

"He's been alone y/n..he doesn't know how to care for someone like you, he doesn't know what to do. He's trying you know that right?"

Nodding "I understand.."

He sighed "I wish you did. You'll never understand that boy. You'll never feel the embarrassing emotions. The suicidal thoughts. The everything that he's felt...yeah you've been bullied. But you've never felt what hes been through" hoyt put his head down

I put my hand on Hoyt's knee
"Charlie..I love him ok? I'm not like Bianca or anyone else..I really love Thomas" I looked into his eyes. For the first time I seen his 
teary eyes

He chuckled to himself
"Your gonna make me cry you asshole..I gotta go help mama before you make me open up more"
He got up and out the rocking chair back
"You'll be ok?" He asked

I nod smiling
"Thank you Hoyt I really mean it"

He smiled and nods before walking out shutting the door slowly.

Some minutes went by before I decided to come out of the room and to find mama.
Walking down the stairs I went to the sewing room where she was. I wanted to see if she had pictures of Thomas.

"Hey mama can we talk?" I asked
She turned around from her sewing machine and nods "yeah hon what's wrong?"

"Oh nothing I actually was wondering if you had baby pictures of Thomas?" I asked
She smiled "he's tried to burn them and rip them all but I keep a lot hidden away" she said to me as she moved some things around and a small box was in her hand. She opens it and there was all baby pictures of Thomas.

"Here hon shut the door and you can see, Thomas will get mad if he knows there's more pictures of him" she said putting her sewing glasses back on before continuing her sewing.

I went to shut the door before going to a seat in the room and looked at the baby pictures in the box "he was a beautiful baby and still is" mama said smiling.

I nod and rub my finger over the picture
"Yeah he was" I sighed before looking out the window "does Thomas what this baby with me?" I said bluntly

A long silence was what went by.
"Trust me..if you actual thought of leaving he'd find you. As mad as that man gets. He'll never leave you nor want you to leave him" she said looking at me sternly

"I hope you right mama, I love your son"

"And Thomas loves you more then you'd ever imagine".
She smiled a bit at me

Never thought Hoyt would have a
Soft side to him huh?