The wife and her Mistress

23- Love is pain

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐖𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐄

WARNING! some scenes might be disturbing.

~ 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒑𝒂𝒊𝒏~

THEY SAY love is nothing without pain in it. Pain is just a same 4 word letter as love. Every time I heard the word ‘Love’ the word ‘pain’ always came in my mind like a big hurricane.

love is useless when pain doesn’t come with it. Para silang kambal na hindi mo kayang paghiwalayin. Kahit anong gawin mo , if you want to love. You need  to face pain in order to make it stronger. It should be balance.

But sometimes , it can also make it weaker rather than being strong.
And if that day happened , we have no choice but to accept it. Because you can never separate Love to pain. Because Love is pain.

I gently closed my eyes as my body is trembling in deep fear as soon as I heard the bad news that broke my heart into pieces.

I know she’s in pain right now. I want her to go home. But as soon as I heard her voice through my phone. I noticed something was a little bit off.

[ “ Love pauwi na ako. Gusto mo bang dumaan ako ng drive thru? Anong gusto mo?” ] she asked softly.

I can notice that there is something wrong about it. It feels like she’s forcing her voice to sound like it’s okay.

“ Go home now , please” I begged.

[ “ Pauwi na ako , love. Is everything okay?” ] I gulped upon noticing how she was trying to force herself to speak as if everything was d4mn fine.

“ I’m waiting for you at the gate , please go home now. I’m okay , but I’m worried about you…” is stated but I didn’t get any response to what I said.

Pag uwi niya , I noticed how she tried to remain the same as before as if nothing happened. Habang kumakain kami , pansin ko ang pagkawala ng gana niya. ngunit sa tuwing lalapatan ko siya ng tingin ay parang pinipilit niya ang sarili niya na kumain kahit parang wala siyang gana.

While she was on my bathroom , I can hear how she sobbed and whimper inside while I was there outside. Paglabas niya , I acted as if I didn’t heard any of her sob.

After kong mag half bath. Napansin ko ang malalim niyang titig sa putting kisame ng kwarto ko na para bang may kung anong bumabagabag sa kanya. After my skin care routine I noticed how her hands are trembling while her eyes are blazing with madness as if she’s trying to control her anger but she’s slowly failing.

I was about to confront her. But she then stood up while her eyes are still blazing. She gently throw her phone at my bed.

“ Love , magpapahangin lang ako sa labas” she didn’t even wait for my response. She just stormed out of my room while palm was clenching out of anger. Her nails almost buried at her palm which makes my brows furrowed.
Hanggang kailan niya balak itago sa ‘kin ang problema niya gayong alam ko na ito? nakakapanghina siyang makitang ganun na parang kaunti na lang sasabog na.

Nang masiguro ko nang nasa baba na nga siya ay agad kong nilapitan ang phone niya na naiwan niyang bukas dahil sa pagmamadali. And when I read it , i can’t help but to clench my fist out of burning anger.

Dali-dali akong pumasok sa banyo at saka tinawagan ang number ni Ivory…

“ Ivory , where are you right now?” I asked.

[ “ I’m at my condo , why?” ] taka niyang tanong.

“ Kamusta ang kalagayan ni Mamey bago ka umalis ng hospital?” nag aalala kong tanong.