BE WITH YOU (OIKAWA x OC)

• Decision •

okanoue asami

One week has passed since I have completely remembered everything. I was admitted as well to a hospital in Tokyo where mom works. Basically, I was a plump. That was the reason.

     Friends from Miyagi and friends from Tokyo were visiting me and giving me support that I need which I appreciated. Akaashi-kun also visiting me along with Bokkun and Tetsu. We haven't talked a lot since that day. I honestly don't have  a word for him or for us. I felt like I was avoiding him. We were just saying hi's and hello's and done.

     Oikawa was also visiting me every now and then. He was sweeter than before but something's different because he was putting up a facàde in front of me. I knew him so well so he cannot hide it from me but... I have an idea why he was doing this as well.

    Oikawa was fixing my things in the cabinet while humming when I pulled the hem of his shirt. "Do you need anything, Mi Amor?"

    "Nothing. Just want you to sit down and relax." I tapped the side of my bed and he smiled and sat. He was still wearing the ring. Thank goodness.

     "Sa-chan. You know that I love you right?" He asked randomly. I nodded as a response waiting for his next words.

    "I want you to be happy with the person you love. And I want you to be so perfectly fine. I want you to be healthy..." He held my hand and he seemed holding up his tears.

   
    "You are so weird right now but yeah forgiven" I brushed his hair. I don't know what it was but I'm scared I felt like we were falling apart.

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    That night I have received a message from Oikawa. "I love you..." that's the only message he sent. The next day, I haven't received or heard anything from him.

     Yesterday, he messaged me and now he was ignoring me. There were times he will ring my phone but in an instant, the call ended before I could answer it. This guy was really something else. I was hoping he will visit. I heard a knock from the door and heard it clicked. I smiled even though my back was facing the door as I looked at the moon from my window. "Tooru, the moon is so big and shining... oh, it's you..." 

    My smile faltered when I saw Akaashi holding a paper bag and sat beside me. "You're expecting someone. Understandable."

    "Sorry Kaashi. Thank you for visiting me."

     "Your smile faded when you saw it was me. Can we talk about us now?"

     I honestly don't know if I still love him or it was just guilt that I'm feeling.

    "I think, I ranaway for too long now. Let's talk."

    "I want us to start all over again..." Keiji opened up right away. I flinched and felt my heart beats crazily fast.

    "I can't..." 

     "Why Sami? Is it because of Oikawa-san? I'm taking you back. He went to Miyagi already. We talked  yesterday and I told him that I want to get back to you." I felt that my heart was shattered. I'm still trying to connect these dots.

     I'm still trying to rationalize and still validating my feelings for these two guys. This was the reason why he was so freaking weird. Oikawa decided to let go of me. He let go of me so that I can decide quickly and recover quickly. He was a flirt but one thing's for sure, Tooru will never ruin a relationship. He's so stupid.