HEEJAKE • HAVING YOU NEAR ME

introduction

this is yo' author breaking promises as always and writing a heejake book with mature contents. but in her defense, exploring this genre is kinda fun.

[MATURE CONTENT!]
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i tried to avoid using filter words, so...

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Jake stirred in the bed, slowly fluttering his eyes open as the sunlight seeped through the curtains. He felt Heeseung move as the weight lifted from the bed. Footsteps were heard until the door creaked open before it closed again.

He pulled the covers up, covering his body. There were painful stings surrounding his chest and Jake hated the feeling. The vivid memory of what happened last night flashes back on his mind as he closes his eyes. It was great, as always, but Jake was sure Heeseung left a lot of purple marks all over him again.

He always did. Heeseung always leaves painful wounds and scars, he marks Jake painfully. Jake had to endure it for days, but nevertheless, he still loved it.

Jake loved being...used.

No one knows when or how this set up between them started. The tall, dark and handsome Lee Heeseung, was introduced to Jake by an acquaintance at a party. On their first meeting, they didn't really talk that much. They sat beside each other, stealing glances as the older gulped down the glass of liquor in his hands. Jake only watched from his peripheral view. Half an hour passed until Heeseung spoke up first, starting a conversation between them.

Jake knew that the older is already tipsy based on the story he shares. Their conversation started from introducing themselves until Heeseung told him the story about his unrequited love, and Jake had to sit there trying to give comforting advice for him.

It was all that. They managed to exchange numbers before they parted ways. They started meeting each other after the party, casually talking with each other while they were in a coffee shop, or walking in the park. They share childhood stories which made them both laugh. And of course, Heeseung never missed the chance to mention his unrequited love.

Everything went just fine. Lee Heeseung seems to be a harmless fluff boy that radiates a strong dark aura at first glance, but Jake found it irresistibly attractive. Jake even developed a crush towards the older, but he reminded himself they were just friends. Only friends.

Not until that one night when Heeseung called him drunk, saying he wanted to see Jake...in a club. Worried, Jake came and stood beside Heeseung until dawn. Jake watched as Heeseung drank and smoked, listening to the repeating story of his unrequited love. Heeseung rants about his workmates and family too.

Everything seemed normal until Heeseung initiated a kiss. Though sober, Jake didn't know what made him let the older boy do things to him.

After that one night, everything went awkward between them. They have been avoiding each other for a week. Jake thought their friendship ended after that one night, until he received another call from a drunk Heeseung once again.

And the same thing happened, again and again.

And it became a habit.

Everytime Heeseung has an awful day or if he's reminded of his unrequited love, he gets drunk. He calls Jake late at night and have sex with him. When morning came, they pretended like nothing happened. 

Their relationship can't even be called ‘friendship’.

They were fuck buddies, sexmate, that's all.

Either way, Jake loved being near the older boy's side. He loved the senseless nights they were sharing as loud noise filled the room, mattress drenching both in their sweats and cum. Heavy pants and sweet nothings were blown on his ears as he felt the tingling sensation building up inside his stomach because of  Heeseung's rough touches. Those were the memories worth treasuring, although he knew that when the sun rises he will be treated differently again.

With an aching body, Jake lifted himself up from the bed. He reached out for something that could support his body from falling. The blanket covering his naked body fell effortlessly, revealing the fresh red and purple marks covering his body.

Heeseung never cared about how hard he was doing it with him and last night was quite harsh. He even left a wound on Jake's chest, dried blood staining a bit of his skin.

Jake walks carefully towards the full-body mirror, staring at his reflection. He let his fingers traced down the marks, breath hitching every time it touched a fresh mark.

He hated the fact that Heeseung always loses his control, as if he couldn't hear Jake begging for him to stop. Sometimes, he felt like Heeseung simply didn't care. He just does as he pleases, using Jake's body until he is satisfied and then acts like nothing happened.

Nevertheless, Jake loved being underneath Heeseung's touch.

[don't read further if s-x abus- triggers you. you are warned, read responsibly.]