Searchin' | Shuri

Part Thirty

| Hazel |

I was up all night thinking about what happened. I felt so bad and confused about literally everything.

I looked over at my phone, realizing it was 6 in the morning, and I had not been to sleep at all.

Guess who wasn't going to class today.

I sighed, getting up from my bed, deciding to go chill on the balcony for a little bit.

I walked out of my room, seeing several bags sitting in front of the front door.

I was hoping it wasn't what I was thinking it was.

Shuri came out of the room, dropping another bag down and going back, confirming that it was exactly that.

I felt my heart racing from the sight of it. I wanted to grab every one of the bags and throw it back into her room.

She couldn't leave. Not right now. We weren't even on speaking terms.

I felt my stomach turn as I thought about it. If I wouldn't have been awake, she wouldn't have even said goodbye to me.

She walked back into the room, continuing what she was doing as if I wasn't standing there.

"You're leaving?" I asked, as she grabbed some more things, placing it with the rest.

"Wow. That's the most you have said to me this week." She chuckled.

"You do know you weren't talking to me either, right?" I asked, confused.

"Whatever." She said, grabbing more of her bags.

"What's with you and this attitude? I haven't done anything to you."

"Oh, you haven't?" She asked, rolling her eyes.

"Shuri if there's something you need to say, just say it." I snapped.

The last thing I wanted to do was argue. I wanted to get on my knees and beg her not to leave. I wanted to go to her room and cuddle and laugh, but I knew it wouldn't work like that.

"I just don't get you Hazel. At all." She laughed, but I could see the tears forming in her eyes. "We have sex then you say you just want to be friends then you get drunk and ask me to be your girlfriend-"

"I did what?" I asked, in shock.

"Yes, you asked me to be your girlfriend." She repeated. "Then you go on dates with this guy and string me along. I told you I was in love with you and you go and fuck him!" Her voice got louder as a tear fell from her eye.

"Shuri.." I whispered, feeling guilt wash over me.

"No Hazel, I'm done. I can't keep doing this. You know, I finished with my assignment a month ago but I stayed here for you? I tried to tell myself that you were worth it. I wanted to give you what you deserve, but I can't be the only one trying here."

She walked out of the apartment with her bags in her hand, slamming the door behind her.

I knew she was pissed, she has never talked to me like that. I had no idea how I was going to be able to come back from that.

I wanted to move, but I felt like I was stuck there. I wanted to run after her and beg for her forgiveness but my pride wouldn't let me.

So I didn't. I stood there, letting the tears fall down my face as my heart ached.

Why did I have to be so stupid. Why couldn't I just let her love me the way that I deserved. Why did I fuck this up.

"Hazel..." Riri whispered behind me making me turn around.