Hailee Steinfeld oneshots

I'm okay⚠️

A/n: Hi everyone! We've reached 300 reads! That is unbelievable! Thank you so much for reading! Anyway enjoy this one.

Summary: Y/n and Hailee have been dating for about a year now. Y/n previously struggled with severe anxiety, Hailee helped her through all of it. Y/ns anxiety has gotten worse over the past month, but Hailee doesn't know it. Or does she?

Wc:1054

Warnings: anxiety, panic attack

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My anxiety has gotten worse. Again. I mean I can't even talk to a cashier. Thank God self checkouts exist. Usually I would tell my girlfriend but she's been working a lot and I don't want to bother her. I understand her line of work usually leads to a very busy schedule. I mean I'm an actress aswell. I honestly don't know how I made it this far with my anxiety. I'm usually a very outgoing person but somedays I can't even leave my apartment without overthinking. Well today is one of these days. Hailee left early because she had a morning shoot. I was supposed to go to an interview, but I cancelled last minute. I know not the best thing to do but my anxiety got the best of me.

I'm currently on the bathroom floor with tears streaming down my cheeks. I've had another panic attack and I'm trying to get myself together before Hailee gets home.

No matter how hard I try my breathing isn't getting any calmer and the tears aren't stopping. My hands are shaking and I can't stop them.

"Fuck" I mutter to myself staring down at my shaky hands

Panic attacks are scary especially when you're alone. It feels like you can't breathe and the whole world is collapsing around you, and you can't do anything about it.

I start doing my breathing exercise which Hailee taught me.

Deep breathe in.
Deep breathe out.
Deep breathe in.
Deep breathe out.
Deep breathe in.
Deep breathe out.

My breathing finally calms down and my hands are still shaking but they have calmed down a little bit aswell. I rub tears from my cheeks and glance at my phone. 17:25. Fuck. Hailees coming home in 10 minutes. She can't see me like this.

I push myself of the floor and wash the smudged mascara from my cheeks.

"Get yourself together Y/n" I say to myself in the mirror. My hands are on the both ends of the sink.

I pull myself together and go to the couch continuing the show I was watching before... well before the bathroom happened. My eyes become heavier and I slowly dose off to sleep.

I open my eyes when I feel a pair of gentle lips place a kiss on my forehead. I could recgonise these lips anywhere. Hailees home.

"Sorry didn't mean to wake you." She says crouching infant of me

"It's okay. I missed you." I say smiling lightly

"I missed you too. Cuddles?" Hailee offers

"Yes please." I get up. Hailee lays down and I lay on top of her. My ear on her chest listening to her heartbeat. Her arms are wrapped around me. She's gently tracing shapes on my back. I feel safe. For the first time in a month I feel like nothing can hurt me.

"I love you Haiz." I mumble against her chest

"I love you too Y/n/n" She places a soft kiss against my head.

"Can we stay like this forever?" I say closing my eyes

"As much as I would love to. We should eat. It's 8." Hailee responds

"Yeah your right." I say lifting myself up. Stealing a kiss in the process.

We make our way into the kitchen, and I'm sitting on the counter with Hailee in front of me. We're waiting for the microwave to signal our leftovers are no longer cold.

"How was your interview?" Hailee asks

Shit. I can't lie.

"I-I didn't go" I say lowering myself to the floor.

"Why?" Hailee asks a hint of worry in her voice.

"I-I ju-just" I stutter fidgeting with my fingers. My breathing becomes irregular and my heart is racing. What the actual fuck?? Again? Why why? Nothing happened. What triggered it? Luckly Hailee is here. She places her hands on my shoulders.

"Hey Y/n breathe love. I'm right here. C'mon. Breathe in." She takes a breathe in with me. "Good and now out." We both breathe out.

"Are you okay Y/n?" Hailee asks looking me deeply in my eyes. I can't lie to her. She knows me too well. But I have to.

"Yeah I'm okay." I lie. I instantly feel a pair of hands pull into a hug.

"I know you're not." Hailee whispers

And with that I break. I start sobbing into her neck. My tears staining her white shirt. One of my hands is around her while the other one is tugging slightly at her shirt.

"It's okay love. I got you." Hailee says gently rubbing my back. "You're safe." I pull away and look into her eyes. Her thumbs wipe the tears from both of my cheeks.

"I'm sorry." I mumble looking at the tear stain on her shirt

"Nothing to be sorry for." She says caressing my cheeks. "Do you want to talk about it?" Hailee questions. I shake my head 'no'. "Okay darling. When you're ready I'm here okay. And don't you dare think you are a burden to me or your bothering me. You are the most important thing in my life. You come first. Never forget that. Okay?" I feel a smile on my face as she says these words. "There we go! See your smiling already!" Hailee laughs. I connect my lips with hers.

"I love you Hailee." I whisper.

"I love you to Y/n." She says our foreheads resting against each other

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!

"Now let's eat. Shall we?" Hailee says making her way to the microwave

"That smells nice." I say when she opens it.

Well I've learned one thing tonight. Hailee is the one.

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A/n: that was sad ngl. I was thinking about writing smut. Let me know if you guys want that kind of stuff. Anyway thank you for reading. Dont forget to vote and comment. Let me know any requests. Love ya. Byeee.