Falling Again (Falling Into Your Smile+ OC)

Ch.18 Am I

Chen Xue's POV

My mind was a mess right now it's been a few days since he confessed to me a well Brother Yue has been ignoring me but it's my fault if only I had done something else the truth was I am thinking about Dobin still but I still don't forgive him he hurt me terribly and I think he knows that I didn't know what to do but I didn't have time to think about this right know.

I had to get ready we all had to go to some award show an all the top Esports teams would be there from far and wide it was an extremely modern and proper event but sometimes something was amusing that they did I quickly went out the door and into the bus it was only a 15 minutes drive but it felt so awkward Brother Yue didn't say anything we finally got there we sat down at the table. (This is being broadcasted on live TV)

"Hello everyone welcomes to this event alright let's announce the first award," he said we didn't win any awards so far probably because all these awards are for new teams that just entered the scene.

"Alright let's have a quick break and have Hierophant and Bunny perform a song," he said as my eyes widened I didn't know I was doing this.

"No one ever told me I was performing," I say frantically.

"What do you mean Brother Rui told you 2 days ago were you not listening," Lao Mao asked confused.

"Well, what do I do," I say while they just urge me to go up. I step on the stage extremely nervous as all eyes are on me.

"Umm, I will be performing Don't Wanna Cry by SEVENTEEN," it's quite only the song I know the lyrics to I listen to it all the time. 'It's a song they helped me a lot and I once related to," I say as the music starts.

Don’t wanna cry
Don’t wanna cry
Because I love you because the words I love you
Isn’t enough, no matter what I say
I loved you so much, where’d you go?
Did you leave because you don’t like me anymore?

I sang feeling my heart ache I knew he was here but I wanted him to know what he did.

Don’t play around, I know you’re right there
Feels like you’ll appear, so I’m just waiting
I need to find you, I need to go
But tears well up and it’s getting blurrier

Don’t wanna cry
Don’t wanna cry
I have a lot of tears
But I don’t wanna cry

I’m alright (I’m not alright)
I don’t miss you (I miss you so much)
With words I don’t even mean
Even if they’re lies, I need to say it

My heart won’t listen like I want
Come back, come back, come back
My other half isn’t here so how can I live as one?
I don’t wanna cry

Don’t wanna cry
Don’t wanna cry
I have a lot of tears
But I don’t wanna cry

Don’t wanna cry
When we see each other again
Don’t wanna cry

I finished while everyone clapped I held back my tears and just smiled.

"Wow, that was a beautiful and extremely meaningful song from Bunny her voice was perfect now let's hear Hierophant.

"I will be singing Hai Cheng by The8 like bunny it relates to my past a lot," he says.

Water town
Lying down quietly in the star-studded sky
Irregular waves
Involuntarily along the wind
It's like a dream, or is it a dream?
This deep slumber made it so familiar
Been drifting for too long
The end nowhere in sight

It makes me remember all the good times we had together going star gazing and going to the beach that all was until everything came crashing down as he sang it became harder to hold my tears.

Listening to the waves crashing
Onto the rocks side by side
Is like whispers in my ear
At times too careless
At times too careful
Afraid I might wake up from this dream

Take me with you to go find her
My one and only
How many footsteps
Must be under my feet from today
The sun and the moon are together
Next to the city is the ocean
We replace words with our embrace
Take me with you to go find her
My one and only
And smile, tears, breath
The eternal castle
And the lonely island all by its lonesome
No warning can stop me, stop me
Stop me, stop me, stop me

To block the waves for her
How tall a tower must I become

The sea holds up the sinking sunset
The city draped in night
Colors glow in the inky darkness
The silhouette of the shadow
Her reflection in my heart
Non-stop, non-stop, non-stop
Non-stop, non-stop

He finished as I thought Am I still in his heart? As everyone else stood up clapping.

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