All I want is YOU! 💋 ( FIVE)

That's a start

Monday October 1 st

10h55 am

**Carina is pacing around the house like crazy, she tend to do that when she's extremely extremely nervous **

Maya: breathe baby,
Carina: I can't.....
Maya: okay deeeeep breathes or you will hyperventilate babe

** Carina takes deep breath **
Okay I'm calming down now, ouhhh thank you,

11h
**A knock on the door can be heard **
Maya: I've got it babe,
**Londyn woke up from her nap and she wanted to be held by Carina **

Maya: hi I'm Maya,
Stefania: hi Maya , I'm Stefania,
Maya: come In don't mind the messy house, we've got a lot of children, and the house isn't always too clean even though we try ,
**Stefania chuckles **
Carina: hi , I'm Carina,
Stefania: hi Carina, it's nice to meet you
Carina : yea , likewise
Stefania : and who is this little princess?
Carina: this is Londyn, she's one, and she's our youngest,
Stefania: hi Londyn , she's got a lovely name
Carina: thank you.
Stefania : I brought you something that I would love you to use every time you feel , or hear anything that reminds you of that horrible Shooting at your work
Carina : uhhh okay,
Stefania: it's very very important that you do , trust me it's part of my process, every patient of mine says they are completely satisfied and they —- you won't realize that, when you are writing in your journal but I want you to write down what you feel, okay?
Maya: I will make sure she does!
Carina: I will, I don't want to live in fear all the time, I constantly feel like I'm being watched, and it's making me paranoid !
Stefania: okay, oh and write the dates as well,
Carina: okay!  So what do I write for today?
Stefania: well , what you just told me , seems like a wonderful start,

Maya: is there some kind of sensory thing that can help her with that?
Stefania: I was just about to suggest that, you do buy a sensory device or stuffed animal with weights....
Carina: this is ridiculous, I'm a 41 year old woman, everyone will laugh at me because I have a stuffed animal,
Maya: babe, it's going to help you get over the traumatic event that you went through,
Stefania: you don't have to tell anyone about it, it can be a secret,
Carina: yea, but what are the kids going to say? They are going to rat me out to their friends,
Maya: babe, we have the most supportive children that ever could exist, they are going to understand.
** The doorbell rang , it's Carina's new anxiety bear**

Maya: ohhh sorry, I'll get that
Carina: okay thank you,
Stefania: it's really helped my other patients heal , Carina, trust me,
Maya : thank you sir, have a great day too!
Babbbbe, your surprise is here!

Carina: Woah that box is huge ,
Maya : open it babe, ouhhh I'm so excited for you to see what it is ,,
Carina: alright, ** she opens the box and inside was this beautiful brown bear , laying down flat with its paws out so it can give its owner a hug, if needed, **
Maya: babe , what do you think about him?
Carina: he is cute and very soft and heavy, ohhhh my , this is supposed to help with traumas ?
Stefania: yes because see they weighs inside are made to calm the person down,
Maya; yea , it's highly recommended everywhere on Amazon, you seem more calm than five minutes ago,
Carina: hrmmmm , okay fine , but if the kids laugh at me one bit he's going to the top shelf in our closet, I'm not going to be ridiculed by our children,
Maya: don't worry babe, I'm sure they will won't.

Stefania: okay, back to the session,
Maya: right sorry,
Stefania: did you experience an other traumatic event in your life other than the hospital lockdown?
Carina: uhhh no???
Maya: we did, seven years ago , When Carina was pregnant with our beautiful identical twins and it's fraternal triplet.
Carina: Maya don't!
Maya: it's okay babe, she saw the pictures of our ultrasound that's on display on our living room table,
Carina : yea but that's not related to this hospital rampage shooting,
Stefania: yea , you are absolutely right about it being not related Carina, but it's still a trauma in itself,
Your brain blocked it out but it's still extremely traumatic for you and even for Maya, I want you to write it down on the second page of your journal, write the day you lost the triplet and the day you would have been delivering your triplets !
Carina: okay, ** she begins to write it down ,