malignant (Natasha X Reader)

part 11|what is this?|

SONG OF THE CHAPTER: fade into You - Mazzy Star

For the rest of the night, Natasha and y/n shared a glass of Thor's Asgardian alcohol. Natasha tried to be careful but it wasn't working. The thought of her and the brunette sharing a glass made her want to drink more. She was trying to forget it but was slowly getting rid of her walls, especially around y/n.

Y/n wasn't as drunk but she could feel it. Her words were slightly slurred but not as bad as Natasha's and the rest of the team's.

What a lot of people wouldn't have expected was that Natasha was rather cuddly when she was drunk. She was resting against y/n's arm and had her head on the brunette's shoulder. The only thing the brunette could focus on was how cute the girl next to her looked. She was cuddled up to her. She didn't understand why she felt like this towards the girl. It was foreign to her. She was struggling to find out what it is. Is it love? No, it can't possibly be. This is the black widow she was thinking about. And even if it was, that feeling would definitely not be returned. But these feelings were adamant in her mind. They'd have been going on for ages.

The team was talking amongst themselves when Natasha spoke.

"Before when you *hiccup* disappeared..." she paused, "I thought I had *hiccup* said something to make you go away."

"Oh, Nat, I promise you didn't," Y/n said resting her hand on Natasha's knee.

"Why'd you disappear *hiccup* for so long then?"

"A creepy guy was watching us. I had to sort that out."

"Okay, *hiccup* next time tell me, please."

"I will, Nat. I will."

No one had an idea what time it was but things had started to die down. Y/n was just taking it all in. A year ago she was on the run. Now, she was with the Avengers having a party. She was sat next to the black widow.

The redhead moved her hand so that it interlinked with y/n's.

The brunette was shocked at the action. Did she feel that way back? She couldn't possibly. She's a flirty person. But she couldn't help but feel like their hands fitted perfectly together.

Natasha was in disbelief at her actions too. What was she doing? She didn't even know that y/n liked her that way and she's already forcing her hand onto hers? After realising what Natasha had done she apologised quietly and retracted her hand.

"No don't apologise, it's okay." Y/n whispered back chasing after Natasha's hand. Once she had it back in her own, her thumb stroked the other girl's hand.

What on earth was happening?

Natasha yawned so the brunette announced that she was going to take the other girl to bed.

She helped the redhead walk up the steps to the kitchen and sat her up on the counter.

"I'm going to get you a drink of water okay?"

"M-kay," Natasha slurred

Y/n laughed at the other girl's drunkenness.

"Here take a drink, it'll make you feel slightly better."

The brunette helped Natasha drink it seeing as she was so tired.

"Tonight *hiccup* was fun." The drunk girl said with a smile.

"I had a lot of fun too. It's a shame you won't remember most of it."

"I won't forget. But if I do *hiccup* will you tell me everything that happened?"

"Everything?"

"Everything."

"Okay, sure."

"Thank you."

"Let's get you to bed"

The girl helped the assassin down from the counter and helped her to her room.

"Are you able to change?" She asked the girl who was sitting on the bed.

"Probably"

"Here put on this T-shirt," she said handing her one of the T-shirts from the closet.

"Will you stay?"

"Hm?"

"Can you stay tonight? You can borrow my clothes."

"Okay."

Whilst y/n was rummaging through Natasha's closet, the redhead got changed into the t-shirt the girl had given her.

Y/n had found another t-shirt and decided to get changed into that.

"You should wear my shirts more often, they look *hiccup* good on you"

The brunette blushed at the comment and got into bed.

"Thank you"

They rested on their sides facing each other. Natasha reached for y/n's hand again.

"What is this?" Natasha said.

"I don't know. What do you think it should be?"

"Emotions are confusing. *hiccup* I've never felt like this for anyone."

"Same here."

"All I know is that... you're very pretty and... I love spending time with you."

Y/n didn't know what to say. She knew the girl was drunk but that just makes you speak what you hide right?

She put one hand on Natasha's cheek. Then, both girls moved forward, their lips meeting, finally.

Pulling away they were lost in each other's eyes. Their emotions had finally taken control.

"I hope you remember this" y/n whispered to Natasha.

"I will" Natasha whispered back, wrapping one arm around the other girl's waist.

That was how they fell asleep.