Hate You To The Moon And Back || KTH FF ||

Replacing Touch~

Y/n's pov

Everything felt so unreal. I was alive, but again I wasn't . I could feel Taehyung's presence, but again I couldn't see or feel him.

There was one point when I opened my eye, if I wasn't dreaming.

I was on Taehyung's lap, from the angle I remember. He was fast asleep, I tried to touch his face, make him known that I'm awake, but I couldn't, I fell into the helplessness again.

I tried so hard to fight my damn body, all I wanted was to just feel his skin against my fingers, to feel him, to feel complete again, to hold his face in my hands and apologize to him, and to tell him I tried my best to fight, I really did, please forgive me, or else I won't be able to live the rest of my life the way it was before, the guilt will be too much to bear. Please, just one touch.

I know, Taehyung talks to me, but I can't remember anything a moment after. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes. I don't even know where I'm. It feels like I'm trapped in my own mind.

I was lying, wherever tf I was, like usual. Helpless, almost dead. Just when I thought things can't get any more worse, a sharp pain jolted through my head, I wanted to scream and rip my hairs out, that jolt went from head to my throat real quick. Water, I need water.

Just how I imagined myself moving always, I did it again, but this time, I moved for real. I sat up, finally.

My hand roamed around finding water when something fell, a glass. Fucking hell.

"I'm thi-thirsty" I spoke, even speaking was like 100 needles being stabbed in my inner throat.

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Taehyung's pov

"Oh God"  me and jungkook huffed in unison.

" Doc- DOCTOR!! " Jungkook ran down to bring the doctor dragging, bitch won't get to enjoy his meal when my wife just woke up.

I was still standing on the door, unable to process properly, is she really awake?

"Water, bitch"  she was coughing. Oh God, yes, she's thirsty, water water.

"Fucking yes, I'm a bitch." I grabbed a bottle and poured it in glass.

I adjusted myself beside y/n on the bed, my one hand glided behind her neck, supporting her head, and the other one took glass near her lips.

I kept the glass on the table. Our eyes didn't for once looked anywhere else. They were locked.

Hurried footsteps could be heard, pretty sure they were of Jungkook doctor and nurses.

"Taehy-"

I pulled her in my arms to shut her up.

"Shush, don't say a word. Not now." I kept swinging her fragile body in my arms until the others came and separated us.

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"Take care of her, and if you'll need something, text or call me."

"Hmm, I will" I was standing at the door, Jungkook was leaving, he sat the whole evening with y/n, making sure she won't go unconscious again.

" And about that" he turned his body fully towards me and stiffed his shoulders. "Let's pretend we never had that conversation"

"Deal" the last thing I'd want to do would be to disclose that conversation to y/n. Literally.

I saw him off and went straight upstairs. Doctor and nurses just finished all their tests for today and went in their guest rooms.