teenage fools

Over time, i began to fly

April 15th, 2:02pm - every single class I've broke down in and they're asking questions that I can't answer. All I know is we are no more and I wasn't prepared

April 28th, 6:44pm - Ive been ignoring everyone lately, I can't find the right words to say "forever was shorter then I thought"

May 5th, 12:12pm - you said you wouldn't leave, you said you wouldn't hurt me again, you said you couldn't imagine not being with me

May 11th, 3:56pm - I passed by you in the halls and I immediately turn completely around and I don't where I'm walking but I can't face you. Not now, its too soon

June 1st, 12:35pm - today we were suppose to have a little party with friends and take cute photos but those plans were made long ago and it hurts because now you're sharing those plans with someone else

June 20th, 5:23am - please stop these thoughts, I can't I can't I can't fucking doing this dont you get it? I need you

June 22nd, 2:22am - its your birthday today, and your throwing a party I wasn't invited to. So I'm going to drown myself in vodka and hope I don't call you too many times because the whole point of drinking is to forget you but I've only forgotten my name

July 6th, 10:47pm - im out with friends and I'm actually having fun, but a guy said I'm beautiful and I thought of you

August 15th, 3:30pm - its been four months but it seems like just yesterday we were laying in the back of your step dad's truck counting the days til we could run away. How has it been four months? I still am craving your everlasting touch

August 16, 2:02am - why aren't you coming back? I need you don't you understand? I can't do this I don't wanna do this I fucking need you damnit why wasn't I enough?

September 3rd, 1:19am - I'm just now burning our photos, and by that is mean my friend forced me when she found me on my bathroom floor cover in salty tears and blood stained arms

October 31st, 11:52pm - Halloween has always been my favorite holiday, but this is the first year I stayed home. I don't even like sweets, you know that. I only went trick-or-treating because it made you happy, and I'd do anything to see that damn smile. God, I haven't seen it in a while

November 28th, 5:33pm - I unfriended you on Facebook after I saw pictures of your new lover and you together. Ya know, the one you left me for.

December 9th, 6:02pm - I went on my first date today, they made me smile and laugh a lot. My smile has been gone so long I forgot I had one.

December 14th, 5:01pm - I think I'm gonna love you for a very long time, but I no longer NEED you

December 25th, 11:11pm - your named popped up on my phone after all this time, I hit ignore