Take My Breath | Catnipz

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— mason —

i tell myself all the time that it'll get better. healing doesn't happen over night. part of me wishes it did though. simply because it hurts.

it hurts a lot more than i first imagined it to be. how did i manage to get myself into this mess?
i cannot breath when you are not near. and that alone is terrifying. this love in itself is terrifying.

i find myself in a deep state of despair and yearning. i find myself in the deepest darkest parts of both wanting & needing.

but who am i to want someone who wishes deeply for someone else? i am never enough. and i fear that i can't be enough for you.

enough for you to realise how much i like you. because let's be totally real here...
in what world would you ever want me?
in what world would you ever want me as badly as i do you? the world is cruel.

the world will watch you sink into terrible terrible lengths just so you could feel an ounce of joy in the moment you find yourself in the same proximity as them. the world will give it to you. sometimes, without question. all merely for the exchange of your heart and happiness.

for a love like this would tear you to shreds. and when you find your heart in a million pieces...
it's up to you to decide; to pick them back up and put them together or to throw them away and leave everything you've ever loved behind.

even in this very moment do you take my breath and hold it hostage. and for you i would let you. a million times over. until i can no longer breathe.