KSI Imagines / Smuts

Breakups Suck

"Do you and JJ still talk to each other, asks Natalia and like I've said before the both of us are still friends and see each other all the time . There's no bad blood and everything is the same as it was , we are just not in a relationship anymore." I said mustering up the best fake smile I could as I answered a question on my TikTok live.

I had to keep up this act of being happy and not thinking about JJ everyday cause first of all I don't want to seem pathetic and second he looks happy and over it, so I should be too right.....

It had been 2 very long months of being single after breaking up with JJ. Everything seemed new and unfamiliar to me which was natural because we had been together since highschool, so basically forever.

I had never thought that we would separate and go our own ways but his new flourishing career and my own hectic life had forced us into breaking up. We never spent time together and breaking up seemed the easy way out and both of us took it.

It was a mutual decision but I knew as soon as I made it that it was the wrong decision but there was now no going back because like I said he's over it so the only thing I could possibly do was move on with my life.

That sounded easy but was practically impossible because everything around me reminded me of him. Everything from fan comments to the cat we had brought together to the hoodies of his in my wardrobe that I had stolen, everything connected back to him.

"I think that's enough for tonight guys.... See all of you lovely people next weekend and hopefully I get Talia to join me , love you all." I said quickly ending my stream and falling back on my bed.

I decided to check on my Instagram and scroll for a bit to see what my friends were up to and as my luck would have it , the first post was JJ's and it was a picture of him with Anne Marie who he had a song with that was coming out soon. I sighed and turned off my phone and threw it to the side and relaxed when I heard my door open.

"Hey love , saw the live and are you okay?" Talia asked me as she came and sat on my bed next to me. She knew my breakup was still a sore spot for me , so she treaded lightly whenever asking me about it.

"Yeah I'm fine , what's wrong." I asked as she ran her hands through my hair .

"I saw your face change after that JJ question, so just wanted to check in." She said as I sighed.

"It's hard T , everything makes me think of him and thinking about him makes my heart break more." I said as she nodded along .

"Breakups are tough darling, and even more tough when you're still in love with one another. I'm sure he's feeling just like you ." She said as I shook my head.

"He's happy T , he looks happier , it's only me that's miserable." I said as I felt the familiar tears glaze my eyes again.

"You and I both know JJ never shows his feelings online, I can see this is hurting both of you. You both still love each other, you just need to talk and figure things out . We have a party tomorrow, why don't you talk to him and see what he has to say " She said as I nodded.

I wanted nothing more than to get back together with him but if he didn't want to then talking to him would atleast give me the closure I need to finally move on.

I got a good night's sleep and prepared the entirety of the day to face JJ and talk to him.  I had just about gathered all my courage by the time we were getting ready for the party. Me and Talia drove down to the venue and it was already packed with all our friends and colleagues.

"Hey girls..." Freya greeted me and Talia with a hug as she lead us into the main area where all the Sidemen and the sidegirls were.

My eyes scanned the room and soon fell on something that made all my confidence disappear. JJ was sat with this beautiful blonde girl at the bar as they both laughed at something he said.

"I'm sorry babe." Talia whispered from next to me as she saw what I was seeing.

And from then on , the party didn't matter, nothing did. The love of my life had moved on from me and I couldn't do anything about it.

I quickly turned around and went towards the bathroom to dry my eyes and compose myself before walking out again and bumping into JJ.

"Hey." He said nervously as I nodded , not greeting him and trying to go past him.

"I think we need to talk." He said as he held my arm as I tried sneaking past him.

"What." I said looking back at him as he gestured towards the exit door.

We both walked out the venue and stood under the moonlight as the awkwardness surrounding us grew more.

"How have you been?" He asked trying to start the conversation.

"I've been alright, how have you been." I asked already knowing the answer, obviously he's been good unlike me.

"Yeah I've been alright too , listen I think we need to talk about us." He said and I knew this is where he's going to tell me to move on and tell me about his new girlfriend.

"Go on , I'm listening." I said restlessly as he took a deep breath.

"I've missed you more than I can explain, can we like try again, small steps at first. Let me take you out tomorrow and we can go from there. I've missed everything about you Y/N and everything and everyone reminds me of you and that's when I realised how stupid I was for ending our relationship instead of working through it." He said leaving me speechless.

He's been feeling the exact same way as me and I thought he was happy.

I ran and gave him a hug  , his familiar and comforting arms holding me close as I heard him laugh that beautiful laugh of his.

"I feel exactly the same way Jide and I want us to try again." I said looking up at him.

His features looked even more beautiful under the moonlight. The golden specs in his eyes illuminated by the light. His eyes have always been hypnotic to me , something about them that makes me fall deeper and deeper in love with him.

"Can I kiss you " He asked with a chuckle breaking the silence as I leaned up and kissed him as we both smiled as our lips met.

"I love you...." I said as we broke the kiss.

"I love you too...." JJ said with a chuckle as he hugged me again.

"So much for taking it slow." I giggled as I nuzzled into the crook of his neck.

"We're back together then I guess..." He said kissing my hair as I nodded.

"Talia is going to be so happy when she hears about this." I said .

"So is Simon, he was tired of me being moody." JJ said as we laughed.

"Wait who was the girl at the bar you were talking to." I asked with a raised eyebrow as he rolled his eyes.

"You were jealous weren't you , that's why you were angry earlier." He said laughing loudly as he poked my side making me squeal.

"She's Harry's date and she was a fan so I was just being nice , you've got nothing to worry about babe." He said pulling me in for another hug as we swayed under the moonlight as the muffled music from the club played in the background.

I'm so glad we're back together cause Breakups Suck......

A/N

Another one from the drafts , hope everyone enjoyed.

Love you all
Elora signing off ✌🏻