Hues After The Rivalry (Achievers Series #1)

Kabanata 45

Hues After The Rivalry

Kabanata 45

I hugged our family portrait. Tahimik kong iniyak ang pagkamiss ko kay Mama at Papa.

"Sana nandito pa rin kayo, sana magkakasama pa rin tayong lahat."

It's the longing that makes me still cry. I'm healed, completely. Tuwing naaalala ko ang nangyari noon, hindi na mabigat sa akin. Tanggap ko nang wala na sila. Tanggap ko nang 'yon ang kapalaran ng pamilya namin.

I know deep down in my heart that I still haven't forgiven Rue. Hindi pa. Hindi pa rin talaga. Hindi talaga. Not because I'm healed, doesn't mean I'll forgive. Nag-heal lang ako, hindi nagpatawad.

I don't feel any heaviness despite I don't forgive him. My mind is still at peace even though I haven't forgiven him. Nakausad ako, nakausad din siya. We had moved on from our dark past.

"Hindi ko kaya, Pa," umiiyak kong sumbong sa portrait ni Papa. "Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ba siya patatawarin katulad ng pagpapatawad niyo. He doesn't deserve my forgiveness."

I could feel that Rue is happy. Naging doktor siya. Pingarap-ngarap niya 'yon at sigurado akong masayang-masaya siya. That was his biggest dream.

I opened the closet where I hid Papa's letter. Binasa ko 'yon kahit pa maulap ang paningin.

I don't know how to start, my love. But I know you still remember what I told you. You'll make mistakes with Rue, he'll make mistakes with you. I always wish there's room in your heart for forgiveness.

People are flawed. We make mistakes. Rue didn't want it to happen. No one wanted that to happen. Nasaktan tayo sa kamalian nilang mag-ama. And their whole family was also hurt by the mistake of the two people they trusted.

I chose to forgive him. I forgave him, despite still hurting and mourning for your mother. I still trust him for you, despite his error. I welcome him still, despite the agony he inflicted upon us. I still accept him, despite he wounded the most precious daughter I had.

A real love has a lot of forgiveness. He loves you. Wala na akong ibang makitang lalaki na kayang magmahal sa'yo nang ganoon at iparamdam sa amin ni Mama mo kung paano at gaano ka dapat mahalin nang wagas at tuwiran. Ayaw kitang diktahan. Ayaw kong sabihin na patawarin mo na siya. I want to let you feel that in your heart. I want you to feel the willingness. No matter how long it would take.

Rai, it feels so good to forgive. Forgiving does not mean accepting again. Forgiving means it's for your heart and mind. You deserve more happiness in this world, anak. I want you to live happily without a bullet in your soldier heart.

"Tanginang tagay 'yan! Ang taas ampota! Edi sana tinungga ko na lang 'yang bote!"

I'm currently dealing with a client. Their family will have a big reunion, and we're the ones hired for catering.

"Wow, Eris! Coming from you?!"

Nasa bahay kami ni Sov sa Valenzuela, nagkayayaan lang sanang makikain sa kanila pero ang mga mokong, nagkayayaan na rin uminom. Ang tataas pa ng tagay!

"Nakaka-low ng libido 'yang alak,"

Napaangat ako ng tingin sa biglang sinabi ni Eris. Pinagsasasabi nito?

"Bakit napunta tayo sa usapang libido?!" si Sab.

"Sabi ko na sainyo. Si Eris ay isang hornyvurous."

Nagtawanan kami sa kantyaw nila. I continued typing on Sovan's laptop. Tulog na ang mga bata kaya wala ng makukulit. Mapapa-sleepover tuloy kami ni Adiel ngayong gabi.