I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I feel like I haven't been writing or taking pictures or sharing my art like I used to. I think about how I don't feel myself anymore and how everything this past year or so his fucking changed me. I also sort of feel like I lost my mind. But it's just growing pains. It's realizing who I want to be in where I want to go in life. I feel like the toxicity of others holds me back, when I take the things they say to heart. Meaning I let them hold me back. I haven't felt myself in a while but I also feel like I'm a completely different person than who I used to be. I'm not too sure where life is supposed to take me right now but... I need patience. I need to trust the process. I need to recognize that the more anger and negativity and hate that I push, The worse it gets.
A lot of shit they gave me life has crumbled into 1 million pieces. Maybe it's time to let those parts go into stop holding on so tightly. I'm an outcast and a lost creature in a world full of good and evil.
Sweet escape is calling our names.
