I know it's over, once it's "said and done".
But the thing I'm dying to know is
If it could ever be re-run?
The colors.
The weather.
The people.
The scenery.
You.
Us.
Could you ever love me again the same way you did in the beginning?
The same butterflies you felt in your stomach.
The same music sounding better.
Just cause you're in love?
We could never talk to each other the way we did in the beginning.
The constant need to text.
The daily phone calls.
I could barely go a day without seeing you.
But now it's been months.
Months since we even said "hello".
I still haven't let go.
I've found others.
I've moved on.
But this.
But.
You.
There was a connection so different with you.
The fastest love I've ever felt.
But it was all so real.
It took me away from the pain I'd been feeling.
What is it about you Don?
It's been almost a year since we started getting rocky.
But I still think about you all the time.
Wondering how you are.
What you're doing.
How you're feeling.
But you know what.
It'll never feel the same.
Not like those very first weeks.
Having "our spot".
Having our jokes.
I threw that peanut m&m away.
Do you even remember it?
Maybe I just needed something to hyper fixate on.
Maybe I just found you to fill the void.
But you were more than just that.
Always have been.
And always will.
I was so in love with you.
And I still haven't let go.
