Every day it still hurts, more than I thought it would.
My head floods with broken thoughts.
I thought I'd be feeling better.
But it's hard.
Nothing about these things are easy.
Even moments where you feel okay.
It's not going to be an easy process.
Why am I so hurt if I'm so happy?
Why am I still trying to numb the pain with cigarettes and alcohol?
I'm 24, I'm not the same 19 year old that did those things.
It's not going to work.
