No Words Just Feelings

Force

On his snapchat story, he posts a picture with his leg in a cast. As days pass, he updates on his doctor visits. MRIs and x-Rays.

The first picture I really didn't care but I did feel a bit worried. Meaning, I wanted to ask him how he got hurt. He probably did something stupid, as always, idiot.

When he posted a picture saying he's getting a MRI, I really wanted to ask him. Is he ok?

I tried my all to not even think about him. He was something I shouldn't get involved with. If I did...

I think I might fall for him.

Again.

Last time I checked, I absolutely don't want that. I don't want to think about him or anything. But memories come in little pieces. Things around me remind me of him.

It's the worse thing to happen when you're trying to get over someone. I hate it.

My mind would sometimes drift to the thought of him saying, "why am I not thinking about him?". This voice is poking me to death. Bothering me about him.

Sometimes I think about how easy it was to forget about him. Maybe it was too easy.

I do find myself wanting to miss him. I have a constant struggle trying to not miss him at all. I try so hard to keep my wall up. I just started to rebuild it but I have a feeling it's going to crumble down soon.

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Short chapter I know sorry :(
-Haely <3