Seafarer Escapade 5: Renzo Luiz Fuentes

Chapter 54

"Nessa, can we talked? I want this to be done once and for all."

I don't know how to respond. Enzo is looking at me with a serious face.

Is this all about what happened in the past? Is he ready to open it up to me?

Or Am I ready to hear everything? He will brought up my sister for sure.

"I know I did hurt you." His voice sounds hurt.

Nakagat ko ang ibabang labi ng makitang lumakad sya palapit sakin. Wala sa sariling napasandal ako sa may lamesa.

"I want to be a better father to our children that's why I want to tell you what I feel----and what happened that I know."

He's here for my children. And he want to correct everything because of them. I should be happy, right?

Marahan akong tumango at naupo sa may upuan. Ganun din sya sa may harap ko.

Maybe this is the good start.

"I didn't know that Nica is sick."

Nahigit ko ang aking hininga. Gusto kong mag iwas ng mga tingin sa kanya. I can't take to look at his eyes. He is still hurting. When he said my sister's name, nasasaktan sya. I know na mapapag usapan namin ang about kay Nica pero hindi ko inexpect na duon sya mag sisimula.

Ramdam ko ang pag iinit ng mga mata and I tried so hard para pigilan ang nararamdaman ko.

Umiling ako na may pilit na ngiti sa labi ko. "You don't need to tell me what happened if your not ready."

Masikap akong tumayo sa kinaka upuan ko pero napatigil ako ng mabilis nyang hinagip ang kamay ko.

"Please. I want it now." He begged.

I stared into his eyes, and my lips parted in awe because I could see the persistence in there that made it hard to reject him.

Kusa akong napaupo uli sa may upuan at napatitig nalang sa may parte ng lamesa na nasa harap nya.

I heard him sighed.

God. I think I can't keep listening to him while Im looking at his face.

"I know that my parents don't like Nica, I don't know their reason why they don't like Nica. But I don't care, I am love Nica so I don't care if my parents disowned me....Alam kong mahal rin ako ni Nica kaya hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari kung bakit isang araw bigla nalang nya akong iniwan. I did my best to find her, per hindi ko sya makita. Hanggang sa malaman kong inofferan sya ni Mama ng pera para layuan ako at tinaggap nya iyon.....Hindi ako naniwala, alam kong hindi iyon gagawin ni Nica. I know she loves me and just like I chose her, I know she will also choose me."

Why I need to hear this? Nasasaktan ako sa kinekwento nya. Deserve ko bang masaktan ngayon?

"My mother gave me enough evidence just to believed her, but I didn't----not until I saw it in my own eyes. She is asking for another money----fuck! Akala ko lang pala iyon...Hindi ko matanggap kaya galit na galit ako sakanya. Gusto nyang magpaliwanag pero hindi ko sya hinayaan. I hurt her, not just mentally but physically.----

I wiped my cheeks because of my tears and I know he is also crying. Parehas kaming nasasaktan ngayon.

"Araw araw syang gumagawa ng paraan para makapag usap kami pero lagi ko syang tinatababoy at sinasabihan ng kung ano ano. Not until one day hindi na sya nagparamdam.---